Jun 10, 2009 22:47
So, I finally had a better day. Last night I saw my good friends' band play. Came home, sat at the piano, and it all started to make sense. After doing some organizing, I felt pleased to see I have 7 active songs/themes that I'm working on. That made for a smile as I fell asleep. This morning. I was very productive in getting back to people and organizing my calendar a bit more.
I find I'm easily suffocated by stress and negativity and this morning...as I awoke...I felt the grip slightly loosen. (Grammar?)
E.'s back from his big camping trip and we had a lovely conversation on the way to work today. Gonna try to dinner with him in the next few days.
I've been listening to a lot of Gillian Welch and Beatles the last few days. Driving to work a few mornings ago, Wrecking Ball (by Gillian) came on and I nearly crashed my car as the song all of a sudden started to make sense with me. What I mean is - I was able to personally relate to it - and it was so relieving! This woman is such an inspiration to me, lyrically.
But seriously - utter relief. I felt like Gillian just stepped out of my car stereo, gave me a hug, and comforted me with words like "shh shh... it's all gonna be okay, now".
"The days were rough, and it's all quite dim,
But my mind cuts through it all
Like a wrecking ball"
life,
realizations,
suckage,
music