WOULD YOU LIKE A SIDE OF INSANITY WITH YOUR PANIC ATTACK?

[celaphane]

"Many first time sufferers of a panic attack believe they are dying or going insane."

Well, okay then.

So, I think I may have just had a mini panic attack.  Or, maybe it was a pre-panic attack.

In any case...this can't be good.

I got to work early today.
As the office slowly started filling with agents, I began feeling tiny pangs of terror.

Then, I got an e-mail from my #1 evil agent.

I felt a lump the size of napoleon fill my throat.

Then, I felt my heart start to beat faster and faster.
I thought it was going to explode out of my chest.
And, then....I felt my chest tighten and began to have trouble breathing.

I walked outside and sat down.
Wanting to cry, but not able to.
Wanting to breathe, but unable to.
Willing my heart to stop beating for just one second.

And I wondered...what the fuck am I still doing here?!?!
What are these people doing to me???

My body is still tingling.
One of my co-workers who is more like an army buddy to me walked outside with me and helped talk me down.

Still...I've never been so distressed as to cause something like this.

I really do think it was a mini panic attack.

And if that's the case...how much longer till I get the real thing???

My job can Suck it!