SOMEONE WHO ISN'T ME
Most days I can handle the fact the he'll find someone else to make him happy. The idea of him being with someone else is something that I'm okay with.
But then there's the random day when the thought of him being with someone who isn't me terrifies and completely saddens me.
I'm human...I'm a smorgasbord of emotions.
Don't get me wrong...I love that we're friends. I've always admired former lovers who remain the best of friends. I find our current relationship wonderful and admirable. He's become (at least to me) someone who I consider a best friend.
There are those random moments when I miss him...in a boyfriend kind of way. But the heartache isn't as bad as it used to be. It's bearable now and makes for a magnificent muse.
I'm just saying...I can't predict the future. But I know the kind of person I am. And, I know that when it comes to life, I'm not the driver, I'm just the navigator.
So, whatever happens, happens.
I have faith that my broken heart will heal.
And no..I did not just take an extra dose of estrogen. I just...got lost in a moment...in a thought...in a "what if".
This Moment can Suck It!