travelling, travelling...
this is one of those, "i really want to post but can't find the words so i'm just gonna stare at the blank screen" posts.
i have a lot going on. i have a lot i'm processing. i don't know how successful i'm being. i'm less depressed. i think. i'm not sure...
interesting weekend. i think i'll leave it at that.
possible job prospect thru indirect nepotism from jeffercine. wish me luck. lots and lots and LOTS of luck!
possibly (i say possibly cuz life happens, and i don't dare get my hopes up until it's in my hot little hands cuz i want it so bad) getting a used-but-very-good computer from amor_ereptor, so y'all won't have to hear me bitching about computer issues anymore, lol. i hope...
down to the wire on money. unemployment ran out. stimulus check may not come, but if it does, it's not til the end of the month. have to buy groceries but can't. that's not fun...
finding myself needing/wanting to be more private about my life than i have been, and still figuring out why, if it's a good thing, if it's a phase or a life-change, and what it means in relation to everyone who's used to always knowing everything there is to know about me. trust is a precious commodity. considering locking my journal and using friend filters for the first time. what's up with that? it's new and strange. trying so hard to minimalize/eliminate/shield people i love from drama. why is there always drama? cuz we need balance? cuz we get bored? cuz we need reminders of the good things? i dunno.
there've been thing's going on in people's lives lately that i've actively not taken part in. i haven't "been there". i apologize for that. i'm learning that sometimes, in order to actually deal with my life, i have to stop being in everyone else's.
i'm finding my way and my place. i think.
i have a lot going on. i have a lot i'm processing. i don't know how successful i'm being. i'm less depressed. i think. i'm not sure...
interesting weekend. i think i'll leave it at that.
possible job prospect thru indirect nepotism from jeffercine. wish me luck. lots and lots and LOTS of luck!
possibly (i say possibly cuz life happens, and i don't dare get my hopes up until it's in my hot little hands cuz i want it so bad) getting a used-but-very-good computer from amor_ereptor, so y'all won't have to hear me bitching about computer issues anymore, lol. i hope...
down to the wire on money. unemployment ran out. stimulus check may not come, but if it does, it's not til the end of the month. have to buy groceries but can't. that's not fun...
finding myself needing/wanting to be more private about my life than i have been, and still figuring out why, if it's a good thing, if it's a phase or a life-change, and what it means in relation to everyone who's used to always knowing everything there is to know about me. trust is a precious commodity. considering locking my journal and using friend filters for the first time. what's up with that? it's new and strange. trying so hard to minimalize/eliminate/shield people i love from drama. why is there always drama? cuz we need balance? cuz we get bored? cuz we need reminders of the good things? i dunno.
there've been thing's going on in people's lives lately that i've actively not taken part in. i haven't "been there". i apologize for that. i'm learning that sometimes, in order to actually deal with my life, i have to stop being in everyone else's.
i'm finding my way and my place. i think.