third party talks
so i downloaded the gmail application for my phone and it turns out that t-mobile sometimes don't allow third party applications. that is so not cool...because i would definitely start using it if that was the case.
anyway, today i'm not sure what i'm going to do...it's just another thursday. i hate my tech drafting class so bad. i have like a B in there, i think. it's because i'm not trying so hard. i should really try but i guess i just don't care.
i haven't been eating a lot lately but i've been feeling so damn bloated. i wish i could just get my period already. i want to start running but you know, i always say that and i never do. i would rather run in the morning than at night and then chill out when i come home from work or school.
i am so freakin' blind. i need my glasses, pronto.
so i think i'm going to start doing good with my karma again...not that i was doing anything bad. well, i was doing something a LITTLE bad...but it never really happened. i think i shouldn't let people get under my skin no matter how hard they're trying.
i know that they want attention and their goal is to piss you off. i'm not even easily pissed but lately i've just been letting people get under my skin. okay, let me rephrase that...i've been letting stephen get under my skin. i guess my fuse with him is so short from the countless hours of patience i've had with him over the time that we were together.
by the way, he stayed another week in pennsylvania. that's good. that gives him a little over three weeks of being clean. that guy is so lost and confused. i don't know...i wish i was the person that finally helped him out, but you can't help someone out when they know they can easily recover...they just choose not to.
i don't understand the people with weak self control or will power. DUDE! you can do it! it's kind of like running a mile. you give yourself a marker ahead...you think to yourself, 'alright, i'll stop jogging and start walking fast once i pass that pole a hundred feet away.'
i think people should do that with their lives. if they're to a point when they need to make a change and a big difference in their lives, i think they should say to themselves, 'alright, i will stay away from this person for one month. then if i still have the desire to talk, then i'll do it.'
same with drugs...i think that people can just quit cold turkey, they just fall so far into the addiction that they NEED that stuff.
bleh. i don't know. i used to think i was weak. trust me, i was the person calling and calling waiting for the other person to just pick up. if they don't pick up, you can bet i'm halfway walking to their house. it was a sad thing to see...but i realized that i wasn't pathetic...i had more morals and principles than that.
once i've accepted that i can make myself happy without the assistance of anyone or anything...then i was set.
wait...i don't know. i like weed. i love weed. i don't know what i'll do without that.
anyway, today i'm not sure what i'm going to do...it's just another thursday. i hate my tech drafting class so bad. i have like a B in there, i think. it's because i'm not trying so hard. i should really try but i guess i just don't care.
i haven't been eating a lot lately but i've been feeling so damn bloated. i wish i could just get my period already. i want to start running but you know, i always say that and i never do. i would rather run in the morning than at night and then chill out when i come home from work or school.
i am so freakin' blind. i need my glasses, pronto.
so i think i'm going to start doing good with my karma again...not that i was doing anything bad. well, i was doing something a LITTLE bad...but it never really happened. i think i shouldn't let people get under my skin no matter how hard they're trying.
i know that they want attention and their goal is to piss you off. i'm not even easily pissed but lately i've just been letting people get under my skin. okay, let me rephrase that...i've been letting stephen get under my skin. i guess my fuse with him is so short from the countless hours of patience i've had with him over the time that we were together.
by the way, he stayed another week in pennsylvania. that's good. that gives him a little over three weeks of being clean. that guy is so lost and confused. i don't know...i wish i was the person that finally helped him out, but you can't help someone out when they know they can easily recover...they just choose not to.
i don't understand the people with weak self control or will power. DUDE! you can do it! it's kind of like running a mile. you give yourself a marker ahead...you think to yourself, 'alright, i'll stop jogging and start walking fast once i pass that pole a hundred feet away.'
i think people should do that with their lives. if they're to a point when they need to make a change and a big difference in their lives, i think they should say to themselves, 'alright, i will stay away from this person for one month. then if i still have the desire to talk, then i'll do it.'
same with drugs...i think that people can just quit cold turkey, they just fall so far into the addiction that they NEED that stuff.
bleh. i don't know. i used to think i was weak. trust me, i was the person calling and calling waiting for the other person to just pick up. if they don't pick up, you can bet i'm halfway walking to their house. it was a sad thing to see...but i realized that i wasn't pathetic...i had more morals and principles than that.
once i've accepted that i can make myself happy without the assistance of anyone or anything...then i was set.
wait...i don't know. i like weed. i love weed. i don't know what i'll do without that.