May 10, 2005 13:55
Hey everybody. Here I am yet again apologizing for being gone so long! My weekends (and weeks really) have been so full and busy I just haven't been around too much anymore! Well, my classes ended last week - but my summer term begins this following Monday. But, I should have more free time. There hopefully wont be as much going on during the weekends for a while.
I have to make this post quick and I will have to catch up on your journals later - why? Because I'm gonna work out :) So no apologies there! I was supposed to work out early this morning but slacked.. so I'm gonna make sure I start working out at 2pm before I put it off any longer.
Time has flown. Is still flying. It sucks. My birthday and my "Big weigh in" is only 2 months and 2 weeks away. What the heck right?!?! It seems like only yesterday it was 5 months away! I'm kind've disappointed in myself with how much I've put things off and let things slide. I've basically just maintained most of the time.. which is really good for me and I'm okay with - but I'm not happy with that.
I thought about a lot of things this weekend. I know I'm always challenging myself but I guess thats a part of who I am. I'm getting better with lots of things like cleaning and dusting daily, I started to get my homework done before it was due, I've been getting other things done. Hopefully its a slow upward path towards finally changing with my weightloss habits.
Anyway as I was trying to say - I have a new challenge, for myself. Its a secret "POWER" challenge. POWER in the respect that it will be indeed - challenging. It might be hard, it might be something I can't do - but it will be something that changes me greatly and changes this broken record. I'm not gonna beat myself up if I don't do it perfectly or if I don't do it at all. It was just an idea and I think it makes sense and I think it might work.. so I'm gonna try it out. If I can do it for at least one full week - I'll write about it :) Its nothing crazy or unhealthy - don't worry about that.. I promise its not. Its just different than what I've thought in my head before.
I thought I was ready to jump on the bandwagon today and get started again, but I slept in. Super tired. I was super tired yesterday from this weekend and didn't go to bed too early so Its my own fault. I've gotta master this going to bed early thing and waking up early. It will be a key to my success, I know it. Oh well, as long as I do something today I will be happy. Tomorrow I will begin my challenge.
Alright 5 minutes until 2pm, gotta wrap this up and get ready. Love you all, hope you're doing spectacular, and I will catch up on your entries soon, very soon! :)