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*panic* I hope my good week spree isn't ending! I didn't workout yesterday mainly because I forgot to - seriously. Time just passed me by. I'm feeling in that "jeez I just want to sleep and laze around" mood today, possibly making me back out on working out.
Ugh, but I'm not going to! I've been drawing a bit here nad there.. and I cleaned my entire room.. and Now I just have to tell myself that I will get my workout clothes on and workout very soon. Yep, I'll tell myself. I have exciting fun energetic music on and that should help, right?
I was looking at my thighs in bed - I was laying down and I had them up (like if you were about to do a sit up) and I was wondering if it was just me or if they look thinner. I know that position makes them look different because the fat is kinda.. hanging below and you just see the top. But it made me kind've.. excited so to speak. I was thinking "God, just imagine when I actually lose weight how different everything will start to look". I want it to change. I want to happy with my body. I adore myself in a lot of ways, I have my down times and depression times but usually I love my personality, my quirks, my sillyness. I love my love. Its just always been this body that drives at me. That makes things so difficult.
I know my main motivation is health, and that should always be the first priority. But you know.. when I went to the doctors just this past December he said that everything was absolutely fine with my body - I was just overweight. No medical problems, possibly physical issues once I get older, but as of now I'm fine. I see nothing wrong with wanting a better body. With wanting curves, wanting to see every part of my body with ease, with wanting to be able to bend over better, being able to do more physically, I look forward to it all.
Its a long long discussion. All I have to say is that if its for you, if I'm doing this for myself, then I see nothing wrong with that. As long as I'm not trying to make someone else happy or approve of me, and as long as what makes me happy isn't dangerous or unhealthy then I see nothing wrong with just striving for a body that you would rather have - whether it is a "health" based goal or not.
My moms being doing really great too ;) that makes me so happy. Now I just hope my brother will start doing whats best for his health as well.
Hope the rest of you are doing great!
Ugh, but I'm not going to! I've been drawing a bit here nad there.. and I cleaned my entire room.. and Now I just have to tell myself that I will get my workout clothes on and workout very soon. Yep, I'll tell myself. I have exciting fun energetic music on and that should help, right?
I was looking at my thighs in bed - I was laying down and I had them up (like if you were about to do a sit up) and I was wondering if it was just me or if they look thinner. I know that position makes them look different because the fat is kinda.. hanging below and you just see the top. But it made me kind've.. excited so to speak. I was thinking "God, just imagine when I actually lose weight how different everything will start to look". I want it to change. I want to happy with my body. I adore myself in a lot of ways, I have my down times and depression times but usually I love my personality, my quirks, my sillyness. I love my love. Its just always been this body that drives at me. That makes things so difficult.
I know my main motivation is health, and that should always be the first priority. But you know.. when I went to the doctors just this past December he said that everything was absolutely fine with my body - I was just overweight. No medical problems, possibly physical issues once I get older, but as of now I'm fine. I see nothing wrong with wanting a better body. With wanting curves, wanting to see every part of my body with ease, with wanting to be able to bend over better, being able to do more physically, I look forward to it all.
Its a long long discussion. All I have to say is that if its for you, if I'm doing this for myself, then I see nothing wrong with that. As long as I'm not trying to make someone else happy or approve of me, and as long as what makes me happy isn't dangerous or unhealthy then I see nothing wrong with just striving for a body that you would rather have - whether it is a "health" based goal or not.
My moms being doing really great too ;) that makes me so happy. Now I just hope my brother will start doing whats best for his health as well.
Hope the rest of you are doing great!