Once again another entry
I'm writing poems that I have written at least with in the last four years. I used to write poetry all the time, but as long as I've been with Jacob I've only written two or three, if that. I miss writing like that. I don't seem to have to heart for it anymore. And Kyle I am glad to see that you are at least still around. Come back from your journy safe. I still need and want you around.
On The Path
I see a straight and wonderful place. I've never been there before, but yet I see it clearly. It becomes more clear the closer I get to you. Everytime I feel I'm there I get lost, but as long as I've been with you I seem to know just where I'm going. On a path through some trees, past a waterfall. I'm still not sure where exactly I'm going, but I seem to know the way. The path have been so clear, only a couple of little hills to climb, but I've gotten past them. I still have a ways to go, but so far it's been nothing but sunny and when the sun goes down the moon illuminates my path, and the stars have been there to keep me in the right direction. The closer I get to you the more clear the path gets and the better the view.
My Little Secret
I cry so hard inside, but I hide it so well with all my smiling. I haven't told anyone yet and probably never will. If the world doesn't know this then they are all blind. Everyonce in awhile a tear slips and falls, but yet still no one asks why. It just breaks my heart even more when no one asks how I am. But yet I feel so crowded in this world. Sometimes I pray to God to just let me die before I go to sleep, but when I wake up the next morning I feel like crap. So far I've lost almost everyone that I care about or hell even love. Some nights I cry myself to sleep, so the next day I hate myself for letting myself slip. But shh no one knows, but you and me.
No Name Yet
The truth has come out and no one gives a damn. Why aren't you here to talk to me, to comfort me? Why have you vanished without a word of where you are or how you are doing? I know you're there, I'm not sure where, but I know you are out there somewhere. One day you'll come back and it will then be too late to act on any kind of feelings we had or even have. I will for the rest of my life be alone. I will walk alone, be alone, eat alone, drink alone, and die alone. I will cut alone and bleed to death alone and no one will even notice. We will one day look back at this and laugh so hard not realizing that it all really happened, and cry so hard when we finally do realize it.
Regret
There were so many things I wanted to say, to do. The night when you told me that you had missed me, I should have told you the same. I should have told you how I felt. I should have given you a hug. I should have kissed you. I should have said good-bye when you were leaving again. Everyday that you are gone, I miss you even more. You are the only one I could share myself with. You are the only one that knows the real me. But that day I couldn't tell you that I missed you. I was to afraid. But now that you're not around I can't get a hold of you. You have now vanished into thin air. I cry at night because I just think what might have happened to you. Well, here I am now saying it to you. I miss you oh so much and I wish you could come home soon.
The Poem I Wish I Had Written Sooner
I've been searching for a place that I don't have to hide anymore. I think I've finally found it and that's with you. You make everything worth wild. I've seen you from a distance, watching, waiting, and just wanting to be with you. We talked a little bit, but it wasn't the same. I've seen you just standing there waiting to see me. Everyonce in awhile I catch you staring at me as if it was the last time. You are so good to me and for that I thank you. Ever since I first saw you, I has a huge crush on you. You just didn't know it. You didn't even know I was alive. Then, one year later we finally got to talk. You fell for me when you gave me that ride home or at least that's what you say. Everyonce in awhile we would see each other in the hall and we would say hello. You finally got the nerve to ask me out even though you were only joking, but I took you seriously and I said sure. I had to reschedule a couple of times, but I finally made it. I had such a great time and I fell in love with you instantly. To be honest, I've loved you ever since, even though it took me awhile to finally tell you how I felt. But babe you have been the light of my life whether I've made it known to you or not. I waited for you and I finally got you. So far if I were to die today I would be the happies person alive, because I found you.
Damn that one was kind of cheesy. But thats all for now. Kyle when you get a chance give me a call. I'm still waiting on a letter from you. To everyone else. I'm no writer as you can see with all of this. I just write what comes to me. But thank you to everyone that comments or that has just plainly read all of what I have written it means a lot to me.
Crystal
On The Path
I see a straight and wonderful place. I've never been there before, but yet I see it clearly. It becomes more clear the closer I get to you. Everytime I feel I'm there I get lost, but as long as I've been with you I seem to know just where I'm going. On a path through some trees, past a waterfall. I'm still not sure where exactly I'm going, but I seem to know the way. The path have been so clear, only a couple of little hills to climb, but I've gotten past them. I still have a ways to go, but so far it's been nothing but sunny and when the sun goes down the moon illuminates my path, and the stars have been there to keep me in the right direction. The closer I get to you the more clear the path gets and the better the view.
My Little Secret
I cry so hard inside, but I hide it so well with all my smiling. I haven't told anyone yet and probably never will. If the world doesn't know this then they are all blind. Everyonce in awhile a tear slips and falls, but yet still no one asks why. It just breaks my heart even more when no one asks how I am. But yet I feel so crowded in this world. Sometimes I pray to God to just let me die before I go to sleep, but when I wake up the next morning I feel like crap. So far I've lost almost everyone that I care about or hell even love. Some nights I cry myself to sleep, so the next day I hate myself for letting myself slip. But shh no one knows, but you and me.
No Name Yet
The truth has come out and no one gives a damn. Why aren't you here to talk to me, to comfort me? Why have you vanished without a word of where you are or how you are doing? I know you're there, I'm not sure where, but I know you are out there somewhere. One day you'll come back and it will then be too late to act on any kind of feelings we had or even have. I will for the rest of my life be alone. I will walk alone, be alone, eat alone, drink alone, and die alone. I will cut alone and bleed to death alone and no one will even notice. We will one day look back at this and laugh so hard not realizing that it all really happened, and cry so hard when we finally do realize it.
Regret
There were so many things I wanted to say, to do. The night when you told me that you had missed me, I should have told you the same. I should have told you how I felt. I should have given you a hug. I should have kissed you. I should have said good-bye when you were leaving again. Everyday that you are gone, I miss you even more. You are the only one I could share myself with. You are the only one that knows the real me. But that day I couldn't tell you that I missed you. I was to afraid. But now that you're not around I can't get a hold of you. You have now vanished into thin air. I cry at night because I just think what might have happened to you. Well, here I am now saying it to you. I miss you oh so much and I wish you could come home soon.
The Poem I Wish I Had Written Sooner
I've been searching for a place that I don't have to hide anymore. I think I've finally found it and that's with you. You make everything worth wild. I've seen you from a distance, watching, waiting, and just wanting to be with you. We talked a little bit, but it wasn't the same. I've seen you just standing there waiting to see me. Everyonce in awhile I catch you staring at me as if it was the last time. You are so good to me and for that I thank you. Ever since I first saw you, I has a huge crush on you. You just didn't know it. You didn't even know I was alive. Then, one year later we finally got to talk. You fell for me when you gave me that ride home or at least that's what you say. Everyonce in awhile we would see each other in the hall and we would say hello. You finally got the nerve to ask me out even though you were only joking, but I took you seriously and I said sure. I had to reschedule a couple of times, but I finally made it. I had such a great time and I fell in love with you instantly. To be honest, I've loved you ever since, even though it took me awhile to finally tell you how I felt. But babe you have been the light of my life whether I've made it known to you or not. I waited for you and I finally got you. So far if I were to die today I would be the happies person alive, because I found you.
Damn that one was kind of cheesy. But thats all for now. Kyle when you get a chance give me a call. I'm still waiting on a letter from you. To everyone else. I'm no writer as you can see with all of this. I just write what comes to me. But thank you to everyone that comments or that has just plainly read all of what I have written it means a lot to me.
Crystal