I'm there.
I hit a wall today. Of course, I've been expecting this. I've been brimming with energy for the past week. I've even been able to channel some of it productively which is something I've been getting better at. These spells of energy got me into trouble and pissed a lot of people off when I was younger.
Why can't I just get a happy medium? Not jittery with unspent energy and not paralyzed by sadness. Today, all of a sudden, my mood just plummeted and I've barely been able to leave my room since then. I tell my family I'm not feeling well because if I tell them that I'm depressed they inevitably ask me why. And then I've been such a nervous wreck wondering how long it will last that I ended up needing to take two xanax pills.
*sighs*
Why can't I just get a happy medium? Not jittery with unspent energy and not paralyzed by sadness. Today, all of a sudden, my mood just plummeted and I've barely been able to leave my room since then. I tell my family I'm not feeling well because if I tell them that I'm depressed they inevitably ask me why. And then I've been such a nervous wreck wondering how long it will last that I ended up needing to take two xanax pills.
*sighs*