new year.
i would like to leave the worst of the last year on the threshhold of the new, and step into the life i have wanted. but i dont have high hopes. all the stupid little things between me and such things. why put so much pressure on what is really a day like any other? i will only be disappointed.
i have come a long way since a year ago. and not far enough. im still stuck in toronto for a while yet. but at least i am supporting myself, making progress. im still not making as much art as i want to, nor of the calibre i want. but im working, and i find much of what i do fulfilling. i have more to do. i have plans. i want to make them happen. it feels slow, but i will get what i want.
and still right now i am sad. it sucks when you realize that the only way to win is not to play. especially when you really want to play.
in other news, sidra is a gem.
i have come a long way since a year ago. and not far enough. im still stuck in toronto for a while yet. but at least i am supporting myself, making progress. im still not making as much art as i want to, nor of the calibre i want. but im working, and i find much of what i do fulfilling. i have more to do. i have plans. i want to make them happen. it feels slow, but i will get what i want.
and still right now i am sad. it sucks when you realize that the only way to win is not to play. especially when you really want to play.
in other news, sidra is a gem.