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so... my heart problem that we thought I had ... tachycardia ... turns out to be something else.... yep greeat stuff.. anyways...
So about Chris.. because that is all that I really think about .. he says he does not want to be in a relationship right now because .. he wants to get his family problems worked out first before preceeding or getting into n e relationships...ok so i completely understand that ...but it is soo hard for him and i wish I SO wish that I could live his life for him and that he could have my mom and dad and sisters.. and it would be hard but I would so do that... gosh it is soo hard to not talk to him .. like something awesome happens and I want to call him and tell him .. and I want to call and tell him Good night and just random things that I wanna do .. but I can not i guess I could but i do not want him to get mad you know to think that I am trying to get back with him or being to annoying .. so I just try not to call and he calls once in a great moon...it sucks it really does.. andI was thinking the other day alot alot about alot! mainly about how the first heartbreak is the worst but the rest are even harder because once you get over one guy another prince charming comes in and you fall in love faster sometimes and you always say your going to do things different in the next relationship but you do not because you end up "crawling, then walking then full out running into a relationship with your eyes closed" and do not even realize what you are doing. Like i was a complete BITCH sometimes to Chris and I wish I could take it all back because you all know me I am not like that at all ... well not intentionally and I did soo many things without thinking with him... or like said things and he would get mad and im like no no no i take that back you know .. and I do not know " IF it was meant to be it was meant to be" It is just hard now that I am out of school.. to thinkg were the heck am i going to meet a guy ever? and people are like work .. and Im like o great I am dooooooomed I met Chris there but never again will I date anyone from Golden Corral ever or my work .. unless it is Chris... and
people are like stephanie you can get any guy you want and as that MAY be tru ..some guys just wnat to get with you for one thing.. and some guys are dirty and nasty and there is the small few that come from heaven and then all of a sudden go pyscho on you and then there is people like Chris... who were wonderful but had there moments .. like Chris wasnt perfect he definetely would get mad a little things. When I could of got mad at him plenty of times. . but i just sucked it up .. you know? you would think in a relationship if you truly love someone you would not get mad at them because you love them soo much you would just suck it up and forget about or bring it up nicely ..
like for me why argue with your SIGNIFICANT OTHER.. why? i mean for me I DO NOT argue with n e one else in my life why should i with them? I mean boyfriends are meant to be "punching bags" so to speak... they are made to fulfill the pleasures in our life... REally they are ...pleasures such as emotionally and physically it is true.
Girls do need guys to survive.. no matter what us girls says .. we can say we do not but we do... and guys need girls to survive.. lesbian or gay...its just that way! haha ok well im going to go
BUT.. guess who called me the other day?
JIMMY DEAN! i know i dropped to the ground literally i was in such shock! ! anyways had to inform you all ok ,... so peace out PLEASE COMMMMENT!
So about Chris.. because that is all that I really think about .. he says he does not want to be in a relationship right now because .. he wants to get his family problems worked out first before preceeding or getting into n e relationships...ok so i completely understand that ...but it is soo hard for him and i wish I SO wish that I could live his life for him and that he could have my mom and dad and sisters.. and it would be hard but I would so do that... gosh it is soo hard to not talk to him .. like something awesome happens and I want to call him and tell him .. and I want to call and tell him Good night and just random things that I wanna do .. but I can not i guess I could but i do not want him to get mad you know to think that I am trying to get back with him or being to annoying .. so I just try not to call and he calls once in a great moon...it sucks it really does.. andI was thinking the other day alot alot about alot! mainly about how the first heartbreak is the worst but the rest are even harder because once you get over one guy another prince charming comes in and you fall in love faster sometimes and you always say your going to do things different in the next relationship but you do not because you end up "crawling, then walking then full out running into a relationship with your eyes closed" and do not even realize what you are doing. Like i was a complete BITCH sometimes to Chris and I wish I could take it all back because you all know me I am not like that at all ... well not intentionally and I did soo many things without thinking with him... or like said things and he would get mad and im like no no no i take that back you know .. and I do not know " IF it was meant to be it was meant to be" It is just hard now that I am out of school.. to thinkg were the heck am i going to meet a guy ever? and people are like work .. and Im like o great I am dooooooomed I met Chris there but never again will I date anyone from Golden Corral ever or my work .. unless it is Chris... and
people are like stephanie you can get any guy you want and as that MAY be tru ..some guys just wnat to get with you for one thing.. and some guys are dirty and nasty and there is the small few that come from heaven and then all of a sudden go pyscho on you and then there is people like Chris... who were wonderful but had there moments .. like Chris wasnt perfect he definetely would get mad a little things. When I could of got mad at him plenty of times. . but i just sucked it up .. you know? you would think in a relationship if you truly love someone you would not get mad at them because you love them soo much you would just suck it up and forget about or bring it up nicely ..
like for me why argue with your SIGNIFICANT OTHER.. why? i mean for me I DO NOT argue with n e one else in my life why should i with them? I mean boyfriends are meant to be "punching bags" so to speak... they are made to fulfill the pleasures in our life... REally they are ...pleasures such as emotionally and physically it is true.
Girls do need guys to survive.. no matter what us girls says .. we can say we do not but we do... and guys need girls to survive.. lesbian or gay...its just that way! haha ok well im going to go
BUT.. guess who called me the other day?
JIMMY DEAN! i know i dropped to the ground literally i was in such shock! ! anyways had to inform you all ok ,... so peace out PLEASE COMMMMENT!