Bad news comes, don't you worry when it lands...
...good news will work its way to all them plans.
I should probably take my cue from these lyrics and stop worrying so damn much about the bad stuff. Although I think I've pretty much psyched myself up to receive nothing but bad news. Damn those gut feelings... sometimes, women's intuition is more of a curse than a blessing, and I wish mine would turn out to be faulty once in a while. You'd think it would be faulty, with the amount of testosterone I hang out with on a regular basis. Oh well.
Arrived in Worcester yesterday - I'm pretty annoyed with Frank, because it hurts that for someone who I used to be so close to, he has no interest in actually spending time with me because I don't like his new friends, and if I won't hang out with them, then I guess I'm shit out of luck. If that's the way it's gonna be, then so be it. I'm not hurting for cool people to hang out with - I have plenty of friends who are perfectly happy to hang out with me. There's advice I'd like to give to all too many people out there - if you hang out with someone that a large percentage of your friends dislike, then perhaps it's time to reevaluate what redeeming qualities you actually see, if no one else can see them too. I mean, all my girly magazines warn against dating someone that your friends absolutely can't stand, because love can make you blind to serious faults, so I don't see why the same theorem can't apply to friendship. And yeah - this is definitely advice I wish I had taken a long time ago myself, in many situations. Or maybe I should just shut the fuck up and stop sounding like a whiny little bitch. Yup, I'm on it.
I really don't like who I've become lately. I mean, I'm still more or less the same, but there's this awful veneer of bitterness covering me lately that I just can't seem to wash off, and I let it coat a lot of things that I say. And I really hate it. But I hate internalizing my emotions too. So I don't know what to do about that. I feel like I used to be sweet and lovable, and now I'm this bitter, scorned girl who's angry at the world, and I don't wanna be that way. I just want someone to bring out the sweet, lovable me again. :(
I should probably take my cue from these lyrics and stop worrying so damn much about the bad stuff. Although I think I've pretty much psyched myself up to receive nothing but bad news. Damn those gut feelings... sometimes, women's intuition is more of a curse than a blessing, and I wish mine would turn out to be faulty once in a while. You'd think it would be faulty, with the amount of testosterone I hang out with on a regular basis. Oh well.
Arrived in Worcester yesterday - I'm pretty annoyed with Frank, because it hurts that for someone who I used to be so close to, he has no interest in actually spending time with me because I don't like his new friends, and if I won't hang out with them, then I guess I'm shit out of luck. If that's the way it's gonna be, then so be it. I'm not hurting for cool people to hang out with - I have plenty of friends who are perfectly happy to hang out with me. There's advice I'd like to give to all too many people out there - if you hang out with someone that a large percentage of your friends dislike, then perhaps it's time to reevaluate what redeeming qualities you actually see, if no one else can see them too. I mean, all my girly magazines warn against dating someone that your friends absolutely can't stand, because love can make you blind to serious faults, so I don't see why the same theorem can't apply to friendship. And yeah - this is definitely advice I wish I had taken a long time ago myself, in many situations. Or maybe I should just shut the fuck up and stop sounding like a whiny little bitch. Yup, I'm on it.
I really don't like who I've become lately. I mean, I'm still more or less the same, but there's this awful veneer of bitterness covering me lately that I just can't seem to wash off, and I let it coat a lot of things that I say. And I really hate it. But I hate internalizing my emotions too. So I don't know what to do about that. I feel like I used to be sweet and lovable, and now I'm this bitter, scorned girl who's angry at the world, and I don't wanna be that way. I just want someone to bring out the sweet, lovable me again. :(