...with a card up his sleeve, what would he achieve?

[categoryxfive]

I'm tired, I haven't seen anyone, and I can officially say GOOD FOR ME! Who gives a damn? I want to have friendships, I want to stay out all hours of the night with people I like to be around, I want to stop spending weekends at my mother's glued to the computer hoping that someone will message me and say "Are you doing anything? I haven't seen you for a while; let's go hang out." It makes me crazy to waste free time, especially when there are people I want to see. I'm not upset or whatever-really understanding, actually, there seem to be few people who can tolerate my company, let alone enjoy it-it's just that the weekend is coming up and I will off myself if I have to spend it at the computer muttering about the cold and downloading music that I can't even play loudly because we have to think about the NEIGHBORS. All I want is an invitation to go hang out somewhere or something. I mean, Zoe's coming over Friday night and we're FACTbussing to Connellsville on Saturday morning, but I'll be back relatively early and I wil certainly want to be somewhere later in the evening. Of course, God forbid there be any kind of show or whatever so that I can see people at least for a few minutes. No, not here. I love this place, I really do, but it gets unbearably dull when it gets cold, since there's approximately one show a month and you can't walk around without freezing. I could go to the mall but what's the fun in that? Whatever.

I guess I'll try to find a way to stay occupied. In the meantime, I need to sleep very badly, even if I'll feel awful when I wake up. Whatever. I have to do my homework then, anyway.

Even if I see nobody and do nothing, it's still been an alright couple of days. I just wish there were more people I could spend time with. Bahhhh.