Driving at 6.30AM when you haven't been asleep made me realize just how out of sync I feel with the world. I end my day when other people start theirs. I can't even remember the last time I went to sleep and it was still dark outside, which is a little intimidating in its own way. It's not that I don't belong in this world, per se, but I just ( Read more... )

Strange day, strange thoughts ( Read more... )

Oh my god, my very existence hurts. Seriously. Trying to figure out how there can be compassion towards others when there is no self and no other; that there is no thing, no one, and no self but self-liberation and compassion (which is selfish in it's self-righteous belief of selflessness) are still possible, but must be done by not doing, since ( Read more... )

I think I'm going to cop out and end up doing the regular essays. I just can't handle the thought of putting so much work into a creative effot and then not getting a good grade on it because I am not artistic. But at the same time, I don't really feel like writing an essay either. So instead of doing any of the work that I should be, I'm trying ( Read more... )

The concept of this icon cracks me up every single time. I'm a dork, but this entry is heavily art oriented and mentions God, despite it's relative shortness, so its fine. I got almost everything done except write my one page commentary for the story that we're workshopping in class, but I really find that to be a minor thing that will be easily ( Read more... )

I think the reason I'm trying to write so much is to validate my existence ( Read more... )

The headline caught my eye, along with various parts of the article. Reposted here out of interest.

Hefner Says He Has Puritan Roots
By The Associated Press2 hours, 35 minutes ago

Hugh Hefner, king of the Playboy empire, says he had to reinvent his identity to leave his Puritan roots behind.

Hefner tells Time magazine he is a direct descendant ( Read more... )

I just watched Last Life in the Universe and while I was watching the beginning, I was at peace. As the movie progressed, I went with it, understanding feeling out of the element. And the end, there was that sorrowful but sweet sort of longing. And the smoking scene with handcuffs was a quiet reassurance that somehow it would all be okay. Yet ( Read more... )

For truth: Your life has a limit but knowledge has none.

Because it's so smartass and reminds me of my adventures in the Analects: "I have heard you say, Master, `Leave the state that is well ordered and go to the state in chaos! At the doctor's gate are many sick men.' I want to use these words as my standard, in hopes that I can restore his ( Read more... )

Feel free to ignore this entry, as it is largely Chuang Tzu. But the following, parts italicized by me for points of interest and bolded for adoration, really messes with me in an interesting way, since this comes from over two thousand years ago and is what I think about, how I think, and yet not at all at the same time ( Read more... )