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i'm utterly dumbfounded at the making of 4/20 as a holiday, it's very pointless honestly. If you're going to get high, you know you're going to do it when you feel like it, so why designate a day to make you're parents freak out that you're going to go get high, when a.) with you're secret habits, you should be freaking them out all the time, or b.) even if it wasn't a holiday, you'd probably be getting high anyways. damn.....the pointlessness of this holiday is something that will always continue to get me.
on top of that, now there's someone i baaaaaaaaadly wanted to talk to tonight, but seeing as it is 4/20, he is probably out getting stoned, because there's nothing else to do. which sucks, because he's not much to talk to when he's stoned, or so he says.
MALIA, this is a name that must be talked about. ok, if I tell her to stop talking to catherine, out of respect to me, and promise her that i'll stop calling her by her first name, because it looks bad to the school board, then you'd think she would stop talking to catherine right? NO. it never fucking works like that, that would just be way too easy. Catherine doesn't get it, i'm not trashing her, she can make that up all she wants, but i'm not giving her the fucking time of day, and she keeps talking to malia, in attempts to fix things with me, and I DON'T WANT TO FIX THINGS. some things just die, like batteries, you can roll them around in your cd player, and switch them, in hopes that they'll work again, but everyone knows, a couple days later they'll be dead, and there's nothing that you can do to fix them. I just don't get it, i'm now comparing my relationship to catherine with dying batteries. so the moral of this story, is they both need to stop trying because it's over, after june 10th, I never have to see catherine again, and I like it that way, and I'd hope that they would both back off and keep it that way. I do think that transporting people she doesn't even like, and buying them tickets to shows, that i'm supposed to be going with them to, is just a bit shady, but i'll live. She may have a signed t-shirt, but I have friendship, which is way better. I'm a groupie minus the sex stuff...well except the markie thing.
so the catherine chronicles of my life, have finally come to a close, and I'm actually happy, with minimal friends at this point in time. I don't have to deal with so much shit, because there's not enough people around to create a lot of drama. it's nice.
so boys, yeah they create a whole nother can of worms to be sliced open. you think you drop the friend thing, and its gone, and then boys come along and it bites you in the ass. so things with the ex are shaky, not josh, but the other significant one, I want them to work out, because i'm still in love with him, but I wonder if this is just wishful thinking. I mean after 2 years of dating someone, you don't really lose what you felt for them ever, its always there, and I think the whole 234943095843098 shots that happened after the first breakup didn't go so well, so maybe this summer it'll be different, and actually work. and if it doesn't, at least I got to chill with him again.
Josh sent me an e-mail out of nowhere, which is kinda wierd, because it's like, after 6 months of wanting something so badly and not getting it, you kinda give up, and then it happens, and you're like what the fuck? where the fuck was this when I wanted it. Just a bit odd, and caused me to do some heavy thinking, and I've practically been eating the bottle of aleve for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. MAAAADDDDD headaches have resulted from this.
CHAAAAAAAAAAD I have no clue whats going on, he seems interested, but more in the von trappe girl, which is kinda odd. so I don't know what to make of this. I HATE PROM, just thought i'd get that out of the way, its in a month from tomorrow, and I think I'm going to the beach, with some random boy, and i'm going to carry on the tradition of getting drunk then laid, or the other way around, because I guess if you're going to do something fun, and not go to prom, you might as well carry on with the afterparty. this is how I see it at least.
($0.69 slurpees at cumberland farms are possibly the root of all orgasms)
my pregnant teacher made some pretty amusing jokes about 4/20 today, laughing as kids asked her how she was going to celebrate, and she replied," oh me and the baby are going home to the hooka, so that should be fun." I was tres tres amused.
and I put up curtains today too....very productive. I hate gnats by the way.
♥ katie.
on top of that, now there's someone i baaaaaaaaadly wanted to talk to tonight, but seeing as it is 4/20, he is probably out getting stoned, because there's nothing else to do. which sucks, because he's not much to talk to when he's stoned, or so he says.
MALIA, this is a name that must be talked about. ok, if I tell her to stop talking to catherine, out of respect to me, and promise her that i'll stop calling her by her first name, because it looks bad to the school board, then you'd think she would stop talking to catherine right? NO. it never fucking works like that, that would just be way too easy. Catherine doesn't get it, i'm not trashing her, she can make that up all she wants, but i'm not giving her the fucking time of day, and she keeps talking to malia, in attempts to fix things with me, and I DON'T WANT TO FIX THINGS. some things just die, like batteries, you can roll them around in your cd player, and switch them, in hopes that they'll work again, but everyone knows, a couple days later they'll be dead, and there's nothing that you can do to fix them. I just don't get it, i'm now comparing my relationship to catherine with dying batteries. so the moral of this story, is they both need to stop trying because it's over, after june 10th, I never have to see catherine again, and I like it that way, and I'd hope that they would both back off and keep it that way. I do think that transporting people she doesn't even like, and buying them tickets to shows, that i'm supposed to be going with them to, is just a bit shady, but i'll live. She may have a signed t-shirt, but I have friendship, which is way better. I'm a groupie minus the sex stuff...well except the markie thing.
so the catherine chronicles of my life, have finally come to a close, and I'm actually happy, with minimal friends at this point in time. I don't have to deal with so much shit, because there's not enough people around to create a lot of drama. it's nice.
so boys, yeah they create a whole nother can of worms to be sliced open. you think you drop the friend thing, and its gone, and then boys come along and it bites you in the ass. so things with the ex are shaky, not josh, but the other significant one, I want them to work out, because i'm still in love with him, but I wonder if this is just wishful thinking. I mean after 2 years of dating someone, you don't really lose what you felt for them ever, its always there, and I think the whole 234943095843098 shots that happened after the first breakup didn't go so well, so maybe this summer it'll be different, and actually work. and if it doesn't, at least I got to chill with him again.
Josh sent me an e-mail out of nowhere, which is kinda wierd, because it's like, after 6 months of wanting something so badly and not getting it, you kinda give up, and then it happens, and you're like what the fuck? where the fuck was this when I wanted it. Just a bit odd, and caused me to do some heavy thinking, and I've practically been eating the bottle of aleve for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. MAAAADDDDD headaches have resulted from this.
CHAAAAAAAAAAD I have no clue whats going on, he seems interested, but more in the von trappe girl, which is kinda odd. so I don't know what to make of this. I HATE PROM, just thought i'd get that out of the way, its in a month from tomorrow, and I think I'm going to the beach, with some random boy, and i'm going to carry on the tradition of getting drunk then laid, or the other way around, because I guess if you're going to do something fun, and not go to prom, you might as well carry on with the afterparty. this is how I see it at least.
($0.69 slurpees at cumberland farms are possibly the root of all orgasms)
my pregnant teacher made some pretty amusing jokes about 4/20 today, laughing as kids asked her how she was going to celebrate, and she replied," oh me and the baby are going home to the hooka, so that should be fun." I was tres tres amused.
and I put up curtains today too....very productive. I hate gnats by the way.
♥ katie.