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The camel's back has been broken.
Since I became Orthodox, I have been struggling to reject the secular world. There's been a tremendous amount of implicit and explicit pressure from friends and acquaintances to hold fast to the visible world. I am ashamed of how long I have given in to that pressure.
I can no longer keep up any kind of facade in order to please or placate others. Tonight, I have given up the last shred of concern I had for doing things, or caring about things, because others- or society- expect me to.
Secular society is dead to me.
Pop culture is dead to me. TV, radio, gossip, chatter- it's all noise that distracts from Jesus Christ. All of it is vanity, and none of it matters.
I feel so indescribably free.
God, give me strength to seek Your face.
Lord have mercy.
Since I became Orthodox, I have been struggling to reject the secular world. There's been a tremendous amount of implicit and explicit pressure from friends and acquaintances to hold fast to the visible world. I am ashamed of how long I have given in to that pressure.
I can no longer keep up any kind of facade in order to please or placate others. Tonight, I have given up the last shred of concern I had for doing things, or caring about things, because others- or society- expect me to.
Secular society is dead to me.
Pop culture is dead to me. TV, radio, gossip, chatter- it's all noise that distracts from Jesus Christ. All of it is vanity, and none of it matters.
I feel so indescribably free.
God, give me strength to seek Your face.
Lord have mercy.