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Well not much has changed. I am still lonely. I don't really want to go out, and watch all the guys go for my friends, and end up with no one again. Not that I am expecting my soul mate to be out there, but just a few possible dates. I hate that no matter who I am out with they always get all the attention. I mean really how can the really happen everytime. I go out with Christa, and all these cute guys go for her, with no make-up and no interest. But I try to talk to someone, and they don't even respond. I mean really are guys just interested in blondes. Because seriously when she has acne all over her face,and big ass(no offense), and doesn't even seem interested, or when she does,isn't sensere.What is up. It really makes me feel like shit.That I can't even get one interested guy to look my direction. I SUCK!! So I don't knwo if I even want to try. I mean I am not about to go to the bars without a friend, but that alone drives guys aways, in my warped little mind. I mean I am not as depressed as I write, but I am just wanting something, someone to make me feel like I am at least half way kind of a little cute,just a little. I felt so much better after losing that weight, but it really didn't change how guys look at me, and why the hel not.I am changing my style, more like my roomies, then I have ever dressed before. I got low rider jeans,cute little shirts, I am getting tan, so why the fuck doesn't anyone care. FUCK Everyone, well maybe not everyone.But all the damn guys out there. I hate this shit. I try not to dwell on it, but that works up until the weekend, when I have to watch everyone else with their partners, and me just sitting feeling sorry for myself.Ok well that is all.I can't take my pitty act anymore. I should just get over it, and realize that I might just be alone for the rest of my life. At least I have my animals, I will just be like one of those women.