What to say?
So everyone keeps asking me about my trip to michigan. I don't know what to say really. How do I convey to you through simple words my complete and utter bliss? Even if I tried I know you could never understand. I mean I speant 37 days apart from the love of my life with the only thing to hold onto being hope and long distance I love you's.
I was nervous about flying but, mike jacked me some muscle relaxers from his dad. That helped. But, what helped more than that was a story dick wrote specifically for me to read on the plane. Telling me I was the bravest person he knew, comic book charecters included (which is HUGE if you know dick) because I was fighting for love. The letter made me feel really good and just affirmed me that our friends have our back in this. I mean, not one person has said something negative about us being together. Well.. cept that rant shawn went on bout me that one night. That aside, I feel as though people can sense our love and they approve. It's great.
Michigan: boring. Flat. cold. Need I say more?
Best feeling in the world: waking up next to duck.
Met mikes family. Kinda intimidating at first. Specially his step mom. Had a nice relaxing valentines day. Found a cool cafe there called starlite. I was way over dressed in my black and pink polka dot dress with my clevege popping out. Rented some movies. It snowed and we walked and got chinese food. Laying in bed with him I knew he's the only one I want to lay in bed next to the rest of my life. Scary... yet, nice.
So, turns out I have a great great aunt in michigan so we spent all day thursday at her place. She's 72 and her husband donn is 76. Boy, do they have a lot of great stories! They've been married 52 years! Which means she was about our age when they got married. Amazing. You never see that anymore.
She told a story about how when they were fist dating they were out to dinner together and she was sitting across the table from him and at that very moment she knew she wanted to be sitting across the table from him forever. It was so heartwarming. She also spoke of working threw problems and arguments. Said there would be nights one of em would say "I'm sleeping in the bath tub tonight!" and the other would respond "well, it's gonna get pretty crowded when I crawl in there with you." Never have I been so convinced of this intense emotion called love. I could see my self 52 years down the road telling stories like that to random unknown family members about duck and I. She even asked us if we plan on getting married. I told her it was something that had been talked about and she was supportive of it all the way. Usually with people so young elders try to persuade them the other way. (no crazy comments needed from nessa. I already know what you're gonna say. I heart you!). We also got to meet her daughter and her husband and their two boys.
I feel in love with mikes little 4 year old cousin tiffany. Had a great time. Survived the cold.
Most of all. I feel more strong then ever in the relationship of duck and I. I felt guilty and spilled the truth about some stuff I'd been keepin inside. Although I'm sure it tore him up inside and really hurt him, we talked it out and it had been dropped 2 hours later. I promised myself to him and said nothing like that would ever happen again and I know he has faith in me and us. I know this is it. I know he's the one. I finally know what love really is.
I feel like I've wasted so many kisses and so many I love yous. It's sad in a way... but, all I have room for in my heart now is him. He's the greatest. I've never been more happy in my entire life!
I was nervous about flying but, mike jacked me some muscle relaxers from his dad. That helped. But, what helped more than that was a story dick wrote specifically for me to read on the plane. Telling me I was the bravest person he knew, comic book charecters included (which is HUGE if you know dick) because I was fighting for love. The letter made me feel really good and just affirmed me that our friends have our back in this. I mean, not one person has said something negative about us being together. Well.. cept that rant shawn went on bout me that one night. That aside, I feel as though people can sense our love and they approve. It's great.
Michigan: boring. Flat. cold. Need I say more?
Best feeling in the world: waking up next to duck.
Met mikes family. Kinda intimidating at first. Specially his step mom. Had a nice relaxing valentines day. Found a cool cafe there called starlite. I was way over dressed in my black and pink polka dot dress with my clevege popping out. Rented some movies. It snowed and we walked and got chinese food. Laying in bed with him I knew he's the only one I want to lay in bed next to the rest of my life. Scary... yet, nice.
So, turns out I have a great great aunt in michigan so we spent all day thursday at her place. She's 72 and her husband donn is 76. Boy, do they have a lot of great stories! They've been married 52 years! Which means she was about our age when they got married. Amazing. You never see that anymore.
She told a story about how when they were fist dating they were out to dinner together and she was sitting across the table from him and at that very moment she knew she wanted to be sitting across the table from him forever. It was so heartwarming. She also spoke of working threw problems and arguments. Said there would be nights one of em would say "I'm sleeping in the bath tub tonight!" and the other would respond "well, it's gonna get pretty crowded when I crawl in there with you." Never have I been so convinced of this intense emotion called love. I could see my self 52 years down the road telling stories like that to random unknown family members about duck and I. She even asked us if we plan on getting married. I told her it was something that had been talked about and she was supportive of it all the way. Usually with people so young elders try to persuade them the other way. (no crazy comments needed from nessa. I already know what you're gonna say. I heart you!). We also got to meet her daughter and her husband and their two boys.
I feel in love with mikes little 4 year old cousin tiffany. Had a great time. Survived the cold.
Most of all. I feel more strong then ever in the relationship of duck and I. I felt guilty and spilled the truth about some stuff I'd been keepin inside. Although I'm sure it tore him up inside and really hurt him, we talked it out and it had been dropped 2 hours later. I promised myself to him and said nothing like that would ever happen again and I know he has faith in me and us. I know this is it. I know he's the one. I finally know what love really is.
I feel like I've wasted so many kisses and so many I love yous. It's sad in a way... but, all I have room for in my heart now is him. He's the greatest. I've never been more happy in my entire life!