never been so wonderful
i am in my month of joy. although joy, this time, has surpassed the month mark already and is 9 days short of hitting up two...
i have a job now. it's fairly shitty b/c i'll prolly end up paying them to work for them in the end, but if not, then hell, it's an income and a step towards the one thing i want right now... a place of my own to share with the one i love. this is a new level of happiness for me. i'm being taken care of, not being the one taking care of everyone else (not saying i don't take care of him, too, it's just diffrent from anything else i've ever had). the future looks to hold many possibilites and i knock on wood daily, along with wishing, and -get this- actually praying not to lose what i finally have. being carried through those times when i don't have the strength to walk on my own. i've never wanted to be with someone like this. never actually wanted to start a family, to grow old with someone, but i hate the thought of ever being without him... and i don't think there are any games this time. there aren't on my part. he just has my heart, and i've never felt it in a happier place.
if i were alice, i'd tell you i found my wonderland....
i have a job now. it's fairly shitty b/c i'll prolly end up paying them to work for them in the end, but if not, then hell, it's an income and a step towards the one thing i want right now... a place of my own to share with the one i love. this is a new level of happiness for me. i'm being taken care of, not being the one taking care of everyone else (not saying i don't take care of him, too, it's just diffrent from anything else i've ever had). the future looks to hold many possibilites and i knock on wood daily, along with wishing, and -get this- actually praying not to lose what i finally have. being carried through those times when i don't have the strength to walk on my own. i've never wanted to be with someone like this. never actually wanted to start a family, to grow old with someone, but i hate the thought of ever being without him... and i don't think there are any games this time. there aren't on my part. he just has my heart, and i've never felt it in a happier place.
if i were alice, i'd tell you i found my wonderland....