huh
i was just realizing something about myself. i can make people believe almost anything about my self, ya know with in reason...like yesterday at lunch i think i had the whole table believing that i just love the purse that my grand mother gave me... by the way i really don't like it at all, but of course i am not going to let my grandma know that. but more than that i can and have most of my life make people feel like i am super happy all the time and i have learned how to balance that with a moment or two of real emotion. but neverthe less i dont really let anyone really get very close to me, i just really wish that i was able to find some one who i can let become close to me some one who i can just tell everything and who i know will never judge me on what has happend to me and thing i have done in the past... i have never been 100% honest with anyone... and now it has gotten to the point that i am starting to need that kind of relationship