i too am tired now
i've apparently developed asthma.
i keep trying to figure out what brought it on. the more i read, the bigger the list of potential causes becomes:
-stress
-pooooor air quality
-a cold or a weakness in my immune system
-exposure to cigarette smoke
those are the main ones. anyway, at work on saturday, i started to have trouble breathing. i took advil thinking an anti-inflamitory might do the trick. it didn't. i drank a litre of water. my diaphragm felt sore. my lungs ached. i thought about calling someone to take over for me, but didn't. my throat started spasming and tightening up. i couldn't take a deep breath, no matter how hard i tried. it was like an anxiety attack except i wasn't vomiting. on my way home my fingernails started turning purple, and my arms and lips were going numb. i used my mom's inhaler and laid down. i used it twice and while it helped, it didn't fix it. my cousin's wedding was that night, and i missed it. my mom gave me shit about it. totally ignoring the fact that i looked like hell and felt like a large child was sitting on my sternum.
then everyone left. my mom kept her phone off and was gone until midnight. no one answered texts or calls, and when they did, it was obvious that they weren't actually paying attention.
and its happening again today. i used the inhaler and its doing no good at all. i'm tempted to just do nothing about it and see how it goes. i don't even care anymore, and everyone else i know has made it pretty clear that they don't care either.
i keep trying to figure out what brought it on. the more i read, the bigger the list of potential causes becomes:
-stress
-pooooor air quality
-a cold or a weakness in my immune system
-exposure to cigarette smoke
those are the main ones. anyway, at work on saturday, i started to have trouble breathing. i took advil thinking an anti-inflamitory might do the trick. it didn't. i drank a litre of water. my diaphragm felt sore. my lungs ached. i thought about calling someone to take over for me, but didn't. my throat started spasming and tightening up. i couldn't take a deep breath, no matter how hard i tried. it was like an anxiety attack except i wasn't vomiting. on my way home my fingernails started turning purple, and my arms and lips were going numb. i used my mom's inhaler and laid down. i used it twice and while it helped, it didn't fix it. my cousin's wedding was that night, and i missed it. my mom gave me shit about it. totally ignoring the fact that i looked like hell and felt like a large child was sitting on my sternum.
then everyone left. my mom kept her phone off and was gone until midnight. no one answered texts or calls, and when they did, it was obvious that they weren't actually paying attention.
and its happening again today. i used the inhaler and its doing no good at all. i'm tempted to just do nothing about it and see how it goes. i don't even care anymore, and everyone else i know has made it pretty clear that they don't care either.