The Girl Has Broken Herself
I am a failure.
Not one, but two days of eating
Pizza
Pizza
Pizza
Ice Cream
Muffin
Candy
Rice
Pizza...
did I mention pizza?
It wasnt good pizza either, it was disgusting
I think I feel bad about wasting food so I try to use that as an excuse to eat, and one thing leads to another. I am freezing the rest of the rice so I have something to eat for the rest of my fitness testing (even though I dont want to)
Fitness testing was the whole reason why I made so much food in the first place.
Back up to 116
But, I have actually been running laps on my own time.
I hate it
but, that was yesterday
It's all in the past now
I must get...
BACK ON TRACK
no food today
but as soon as I got home I fell asleep, and just woke up 80 minutes ago.
I'm in a word... Depressed.
Even my closest friend has gotten on my nerves the most
Haven't talked to Ryan since he visited me on Monday
Can't really blame him.
Why would he want to talk to a fat lard of a failure such as myself?
That's okay though, I can will change.
But on a better note, I have stopped bleeding in the most awful spot (that was not related in anyway to my period)
I'm very glad but I just wish someone was here to ....celebrate with me ;)
haha sorry if that's too much info, I don't really care :)
Not one, but two days of eating
Pizza
Pizza
Pizza
Ice Cream
Muffin
Candy
Rice
Pizza...
did I mention pizza?
It wasnt good pizza either, it was disgusting
I think I feel bad about wasting food so I try to use that as an excuse to eat, and one thing leads to another. I am freezing the rest of the rice so I have something to eat for the rest of my fitness testing (even though I dont want to)
Fitness testing was the whole reason why I made so much food in the first place.
Back up to 116
But, I have actually been running laps on my own time.
I hate it
but, that was yesterday
It's all in the past now
I must get...
BACK ON TRACK
no food today
but as soon as I got home I fell asleep, and just woke up 80 minutes ago.
I'm in a word... Depressed.
Even my closest friend has gotten on my nerves the most
Haven't talked to Ryan since he visited me on Monday
Can't really blame him.
Why would he want to talk to a fat lard of a failure such as myself?
That's okay though, I can will change.
But on a better note, I have stopped bleeding in the most awful spot (that was not related in anyway to my period)
I'm very glad but I just wish someone was here to ....celebrate with me ;)
haha sorry if that's too much info, I don't really care :)