Update....
Well things are going as well as can be expected. Jamie and I decided that even though the affair happened in Indiana and not anywhere near our house in Mississippi that we needed a change of scenery. We moved. We now have a little apartment (I love apartments!) in Marion which is 5 seconds from Meridian. It's so cute and we were able to layout our furniture and decorate whereas we weren't quite able to do that in our old house (weird floor plan). When we moved Jamie threw anything and everything away that had to with him being in Indiana/Nebraska. Fine by me, even though it doesn't take my thoughts away. I'm seeking counseling on that. I've learned that writing helps. ha! I should have know that from the start.
Jamie and I really are doing better. You know I truly didn't realize that we had drifted so far apart in the last year or so. Not just on his end but on my end also. Don't think I'm saying this is all my fault because its not, but I do believe that I pulled myself away from my husband and sort of pushed him away. I became so observed in some of my own issues that I didn't realize he was sinking into depression. In return, he's learned to communicate better with me about his feelings instead of "being a man" and keeping everything closed in and I'm learning to listen, truly listen and not blow him off.
It's funny that when people hear of our story most of the women just look at me and say, "I don't see how you do it. If that had been my husband his butt would be out the door and on the street and I wouldn't take him back!" While I would never wish this on my worst enemy, and some people probably wouldn't be able to handle it because it is HARD, but I honestly believe that if you truly love someone then you can forgive them. If not, then it would seem it wasn't real love in the first place. That's just me though.
Don't get me wrong. I am pissed. I'd like to think that huzzy can't sleep at night wondering whether or not she destroyed the lives of a woman and her two young children. I hope every time she hears Miranda Lamberts "More like her" that she feels like shit knowing that she wasn't me, could never be like me and that I AM better than her. After hearing how crazy that chick really is by other people I hope it comes around on her ten fold. She better be glad that I didn't sue her for alienation of affection.
Anyways I'm done with that rant. On to lighter things. I'm thinking about writing some twilight Fanfic....anyone read in that fandom?
Jamie and I really are doing better. You know I truly didn't realize that we had drifted so far apart in the last year or so. Not just on his end but on my end also. Don't think I'm saying this is all my fault because its not, but I do believe that I pulled myself away from my husband and sort of pushed him away. I became so observed in some of my own issues that I didn't realize he was sinking into depression. In return, he's learned to communicate better with me about his feelings instead of "being a man" and keeping everything closed in and I'm learning to listen, truly listen and not blow him off.
It's funny that when people hear of our story most of the women just look at me and say, "I don't see how you do it. If that had been my husband his butt would be out the door and on the street and I wouldn't take him back!" While I would never wish this on my worst enemy, and some people probably wouldn't be able to handle it because it is HARD, but I honestly believe that if you truly love someone then you can forgive them. If not, then it would seem it wasn't real love in the first place. That's just me though.
Don't get me wrong. I am pissed. I'd like to think that huzzy can't sleep at night wondering whether or not she destroyed the lives of a woman and her two young children. I hope every time she hears Miranda Lamberts "More like her" that she feels like shit knowing that she wasn't me, could never be like me and that I AM better than her. After hearing how crazy that chick really is by other people I hope it comes around on her ten fold. She better be glad that I didn't sue her for alienation of affection.
Anyways I'm done with that rant. On to lighter things. I'm thinking about writing some twilight Fanfic....anyone read in that fandom?