there's a story in your walk
then you crumble just like chalk...
I am struggling with work. Just getting up in the morning has become this huge deal. And staying at work is hard too. I may be looking at half days again on many people's suggestion. I'm just afraid that this time I won't find it as restful. I mean c'mon I'm not doing anything with my time. I watch Friends all the time (courtesy of TBS). Friends. So no one told me life was gonna be this way . I'm just so fucking exhausted.
I'm worried about trivia. This whole Lawrence thing was a chore and not the sweet masochistic torture it usually is (like so bad its good kind of thing which I always enjoy) but a real drag at times. I'm worried Point will be the same and its my tenth year and I don't want to not enjoy that. I've barely taken any notes this year too so I'm bound to let plenty of people down. Sorry to araven and coffeefortwo with what I've written here but its true. I'm a down kind of gal who doesn't enjoy much.
More pondering on Live Journal. So for many LJ is just a simple way to keep up with your friends. That's kind of how geekers site is and how her friends seem to operate. Lots of comments about the daily goings on. But there have to be some people who are friends only through LJ. Friends of friends or whatever. I've followed the path to other people's journals and read them, I'm sure people have done the same with mine until the see how dull I have been the last six months (tomorrow is six months since I quit smoking and took the finger out of the mental health dike). It's a strange strange place and I'm not sure if I am using it right.
Ah well enough rambling for one night.
Oh wait I am grateful for live journal.
I am struggling with work. Just getting up in the morning has become this huge deal. And staying at work is hard too. I may be looking at half days again on many people's suggestion. I'm just afraid that this time I won't find it as restful. I mean c'mon I'm not doing anything with my time. I watch Friends all the time (courtesy of TBS). Friends. So no one told me life was gonna be this way . I'm just so fucking exhausted.
I'm worried about trivia. This whole Lawrence thing was a chore and not the sweet masochistic torture it usually is (like so bad its good kind of thing which I always enjoy) but a real drag at times. I'm worried Point will be the same and its my tenth year and I don't want to not enjoy that. I've barely taken any notes this year too so I'm bound to let plenty of people down. Sorry to araven and coffeefortwo with what I've written here but its true. I'm a down kind of gal who doesn't enjoy much.
More pondering on Live Journal. So for many LJ is just a simple way to keep up with your friends. That's kind of how geekers site is and how her friends seem to operate. Lots of comments about the daily goings on. But there have to be some people who are friends only through LJ. Friends of friends or whatever. I've followed the path to other people's journals and read them, I'm sure people have done the same with mine until the see how dull I have been the last six months (tomorrow is six months since I quit smoking and took the finger out of the mental health dike). It's a strange strange place and I'm not sure if I am using it right.
Ah well enough rambling for one night.
Oh wait I am grateful for live journal.