putting on my daytime eyes, a good enough disguise
Mary says it may take months for my body to recover. That's oh-so encouraging. We had a good but rough session. I told her more about the "ancient history". And we talked about how that may be relating to my current situation.
I feel like I'm never going to get back to normal even though I am not quite so desperate as I was before. Mostly I am dull, without light. I am just trying to pass the time until I fall asleep. Just filling the time with whatever. Work is a nightmare. I couldn't face it after counselling so I went home. But get this: one of my coworkers called me there, just assuming I would be there not at work. Great, I've got a fucking reputation as a slacker.
I've gotten a little of my sarcasm back which is helpful.
ugh I'm just frustrated.
Here's my question for the day: what are the things that changed you? What are the life events that shaped you?
I feel like I'm never going to get back to normal even though I am not quite so desperate as I was before. Mostly I am dull, without light. I am just trying to pass the time until I fall asleep. Just filling the time with whatever. Work is a nightmare. I couldn't face it after counselling so I went home. But get this: one of my coworkers called me there, just assuming I would be there not at work. Great, I've got a fucking reputation as a slacker.
I've gotten a little of my sarcasm back which is helpful.
ugh I'm just frustrated.
Here's my question for the day: what are the things that changed you? What are the life events that shaped you?