3 more days..unless Rita gives me shit..
Yup...3 more days till I come home unless Rita decides to go towards Louisiana. I'm pretty sure its going towards Texas but I'm sure LA will get some rain bands. So I may just wait till Sunday before I leave. I was supposed to go see Jackass in Mobile on Saturday but he called me today and told me that he was going back to New Orleans this weekend and then we got in an argument on who was going to go visit who. That biotch is coming to see me man..I'm not gonna want to get home after driving for 12 hours and then go to New Orleans. Besides, I don't really want to go to New Orleans yet. I'd rather wait awhile. I do want to see him though. Actually, I can't wait. I'm getting a little sad about leaving now. I'm gonna miss certain people when I actually do go. But I'm so homesick and ready to go home that it doesn't really matter. There are a select few people here that are actually cool..there are LOTS of people in Louisiana that kick ass! Jackass was actually thinking of moving to Phoenix when we first started talking and he started mentioning us dating and stuff and I casually said, "We can't date..you're going to be too far away. Where are you going to be living..in Phoenix?" And he said, "Wherever you are." Awww...he's such a sweetalker. I love it. I mean I really love talking to him because he makes me laugh so much. I always pictured myself being with someone really goofy and he definately is that. But I don't want him to be my rebound. He's liked me for years and I don't want to hurt him. Alot of people think he's a prick but they just don't get his personality. His personality is actually alot like mine. He picks and jokes alot and sometimes he hurts peoples feelings. I don't mean to do that but I do sometimes. Oops. We actually have come to realize that we have alot in common. He points that out all the time. When we talk on the phone, there is never a dull moment. But then again, we have been friends for so long, I may not be able to see him as an actual boyfriend type. I can picture myself kissing him and stuff bc he is an excellent kisser (We made out in college..haha) but anything further than that we would have to take very very very slow. Intimacy is a very weird issue for me. I have to trust the person in order to even let them touch me. One time when me and Gus were making out he went up my shirt and I was like, "WHOA THERE BUDDY!!! WHERE IN THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE GOING?" But I knew he just wanted to get in my pants..it was way obvious. He was my rebound..no doubt. Thank God I'll never see him again..though he was pretty to look at. I've never been the type of person to have to have a boyfriend all the time and I'm not trying to get a boyfriend but like I was telling Katie the other day..this whole situation with Dave is alot more difficult for me to get over than any other guy I've had to get over. I really loved the guy. So the only way I am going to get over him completely is to try to date and see what else is out there. I'm not going to jump into anything too quickly but it is the only way. I'm not one of those pathetic chicks that has to have a boyfriend immediately after a breakup. But I really want Dave to be out of my head for good because its over..and that's that. So off I go..moving on with my life..trying new things..meeting new people. That's all I can do. Some people say I need to get completely over him before I move on..well this is my way of moving on. Is that bad or pathetic? I hope not.