hello mr lj
i feel that for the past year, i havent been who i should have
ive been what i used to ridicule other people for being, social chameleons (sp?). i would act differently in every single peroid of the day, acting different according to my surroundings, or the people who im with.
last year i did my best to just be phil straight up through and through. yet now i feel like ive given a lot of different people different impressions of who i am. i feel alot like i did in the 6th grade, doing alot of unnecessary things for the sake of boosting my self esteem or ego or whatever. and lately, in theatre mostly i feel like ive been overly rowdy (sp?) and loud, and the other day i looked at myself, after yelling something stupid and unneccessary, that if i met myself right then, i wouldnt like myself and i would probably think of phil john wozny as one of those loud kids who starves for attention. i want to just act the same around whoever and enjoy others more.
you know those feelings like when youve been out for way too long, and your so tired but you keep on trucking but the more you truck to more you do things without thinking, and say things you shouldnt and the more you come off as a loud obnauxious (sp?) person. i dont like doing that. but i feel like im doing ti anyway.
i think im comming off as a rowdy person.
i think id rather come off as phil.
ive been what i used to ridicule other people for being, social chameleons (sp?). i would act differently in every single peroid of the day, acting different according to my surroundings, or the people who im with.
last year i did my best to just be phil straight up through and through. yet now i feel like ive given a lot of different people different impressions of who i am. i feel alot like i did in the 6th grade, doing alot of unnecessary things for the sake of boosting my self esteem or ego or whatever. and lately, in theatre mostly i feel like ive been overly rowdy (sp?) and loud, and the other day i looked at myself, after yelling something stupid and unneccessary, that if i met myself right then, i wouldnt like myself and i would probably think of phil john wozny as one of those loud kids who starves for attention. i want to just act the same around whoever and enjoy others more.
you know those feelings like when youve been out for way too long, and your so tired but you keep on trucking but the more you truck to more you do things without thinking, and say things you shouldnt and the more you come off as a loud obnauxious (sp?) person. i dont like doing that. but i feel like im doing ti anyway.
i think im comming off as a rowdy person.
i think id rather come off as phil.