it's just another phase you're going through, and as cliché as it may be to say, "i know how you feel", to a certain extent. its like as much as you're friends with people, when you get around them or just a big group of people, it's just a sudden feeling of emo and anti-socialness. and you know that you're completely capable of speaking with others, and just being "normal and sociable", yet you don't. why? it's not really that you want to be different, but more of the fact that you just don't feel compelled to try/do anything. but when you get back home, or are just by yourself, you reflect upon what you did, and go- "why was i so emo? why am i like this?". you wish to be with someone, and wish to care for someone, but you never do anything to try. and if you did "try" to get someone, you wouldn't know how to act anyways. i mean, what is there to a relationship that you want? hugging? cuddling? just caring for someone? but when you've obtained that person you admire, would it just be awkward to see yourself actingin such a way? you wish and wish for it, but when you finally achieve it seems like you didn't even want it or know how to react to it. if you don't get what i mean, or slightly do, my bad i can't covey my throughts correctly at the moment. i think i have an almost perfectly identical entry as this in my lj, how ironic. ha. good luck with dealing with yourself, it'll all come in time.
sounds like i wrote this entry phil...
it's just another phase you're going through, and as cliché as it may be to say, "i know how you feel", to a certain extent. its like as much as you're friends with people, when you get around them or just a big group of people, it's just a sudden feeling of emo and anti-socialness. and you know that you're completely capable of speaking with others, and just being "normal and sociable", yet you don't. why? it's not really that you want to be different, but more of the fact that you just don't feel compelled to try/do anything. but when you get back home, or are just by yourself, you reflect upon what you did, and go- "why was i so emo? why am i like this?". you wish to be with someone, and wish to care for someone, but you never do anything to try. and if you did "try" to get someone, you wouldn't know how to act anyways. i mean, what is there to a relationship that you want? hugging? cuddling? just caring for someone? but when you've obtained that person you admire, would it just be awkward to see yourself actingin such a way? you wish and wish for it, but when you finally achieve it seems like you didn't even want it or know how to react to it. if you don't get what i mean, or slightly do, my bad i can't covey my throughts correctly at the moment. i think i have an almost perfectly identical entry as this in my lj, how ironic. ha. good luck with dealing with yourself, it'll all come in time.
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