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yeh. its one of those bad episode number 24328750832175 fighting with the fuckwit parents nights. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. you do not understand how much i am not fucked to feel like this. I hate getting nowhere with pointless endless hours of fighting.
I hate their stupid weak stubborn eyes.
Theres just no point to anything. I SOUND SOOOO FRUSTRATINGLY TYPICAL. like yr 10 me whining like a stupid bitchslut. wah fucking wahhhhhhh.
Had weird but good day today.. started off by waking up mat and loryn by breaking into their house round midday. I love those two so much, they are so innocent and fun and spunky and just yummy warm people that you do not see for a million years but it never feels like theres anything ever missing. Andy was there too.. havent seen him in a while. that boy is beautiful. One day I am going to buy him flowers and candy.
Then I went to meet rebecca and ambs to go to on mission to find secret cafe danni's been talking about. Didnt really feel like nerida but the others were restless sooo we hiked everywhere. Then met my fans.. but she left straight away and i miss her. and i want her back. and i miss MY WAY DAYS. and summernight slumber parties where we overdosed on pepsi and grapes and watched the greenmile.
I miss not getting so sick of everything so easily. And getting excited about not exciting things. and just being gay but being happy. and everything just being simple.
I talked to alisha today.. I was feeling so fucking sad and she made everything better by just saying shit that I hear every second of everyday of my life. Thank you.. I know it wasnt much, but you were just the right thing at the most needed time, and that never happens anymore.
goodnight pretty babies.
I hate their stupid weak stubborn eyes.
Theres just no point to anything. I SOUND SOOOO FRUSTRATINGLY TYPICAL. like yr 10 me whining like a stupid bitchslut. wah fucking wahhhhhhh.
Had weird but good day today.. started off by waking up mat and loryn by breaking into their house round midday. I love those two so much, they are so innocent and fun and spunky and just yummy warm people that you do not see for a million years but it never feels like theres anything ever missing. Andy was there too.. havent seen him in a while. that boy is beautiful. One day I am going to buy him flowers and candy.
Then I went to meet rebecca and ambs to go to on mission to find secret cafe danni's been talking about. Didnt really feel like nerida but the others were restless sooo we hiked everywhere. Then met my fans.. but she left straight away and i miss her. and i want her back. and i miss MY WAY DAYS. and summernight slumber parties where we overdosed on pepsi and grapes and watched the greenmile.
I miss not getting so sick of everything so easily. And getting excited about not exciting things. and just being gay but being happy. and everything just being simple.
I talked to alisha today.. I was feeling so fucking sad and she made everything better by just saying shit that I hear every second of everyday of my life. Thank you.. I know it wasnt much, but you were just the right thing at the most needed time, and that never happens anymore.
goodnight pretty babies.