you're a million miles too close<3.
ok. so, obviously, this is my journal.
and this is apparently where i'm going to spill my thoughts and feelings about everything.
so be warned.
let's start with what's been going on these past few days.
1] i had a boyfriend. i broke up with him.
2] people threatened to slash my tires and then tried to make it come off as a joke (wtf).
3] i broke a promise.
4] i kissed a guy who has a girlfriend. i'm still shaking from that kiss.
and now i suppose i'm going to have to explain all these things, too.
alright. well, this kid jeremy asked me out a few days ago and i said yes. it was cool except for the part where i talked to everyone else more than i talked to him. anyway, people started talking shit, saying that they were gonna slash my tires 'cause i'm a bitch (they were guys that i considered my friends; one liked me and the other is just a DiCK). so i broke up with jeremy, mostly because i felt like that would be a way to keep us both safe from anything that these guys might try to pull. jeremy, of course, had to make it seem like i was doing it to hurt him when i was doing it to try to make sure that nothing happens to either of us.
the kids that threatened to slash my tires obviously didn't think i'd find out that they were saying that. one of them seriously commented my myspace saying "oh it was just a joke i just wanted to see how far i could take it". i guess once they realized that i could have gone to the police about it (the whole "let's slash her tires" thing was posted as a comment on my ex boyfriend rob's myspace), they backed off. i dunno. i don't understand people.
and then, tonight, my friend came up from tom's river to visit me. we'd been talking a lot lately and i've been giving him advice about certain things. we planned that we would hang out today, but he called last night and said, "i need you to promise me that if i try to kiss you, you won't let me." so i promised.. 'cause what else could i do? well, anyway.. i promised and then today he came to visit and god, it was torture knowing that i promised. so we just chilled.. watched the departed (love that movie; leo dicaprio is god<3), ate pizza, just normal stuff.
that is, until he was starting to leave.
we were talking in his car (it was cold out, and neither of us were gonna stand outside) and he pulled me to him and hugged me saying that he was glad that he came to see me and that he had fun and all that jazz and i said the same thing, that i was happy that he came, etc., etc. he put his hand on my face and my face was in his chest and he lifted up my face to his and kissed me, which basically made us break our promise. i wouldn't give it back for anything, though.
but i don't know how i should feel about all this. =\