blah blah blah... i'm depressed, get over it

[carrielladoll]

save me simple pleasures
i am far too lost in my own corruption
to genuinely consume you
and i hope you will forgive me
when i run away once again
i hope you will forgive me
when i lose control
and throw myself overboard
once again.

we all fall
we all crawl back up to the surface
for some it is easier
while others spend eternity
trying to grasp onto something
worth holding
for now my grip is slipping
and i am simply not caring enough
to ever see the light of day again
or to breathe the fresh air
you once breathed onto me.

where did it go,
you ask so sincerely of me.
i ask the same question to myself
and i am angry
because you have stolen the one thing
that made me
the innocence that defined me
and now i am left empty
like a book with all the pages ripped out
and now there's no story.

what would you do if i confronted you
on all the lies the hysteria you created inside me
i hope like a cauldron the memory of me
is boiling inside you
and it will overflow
i promise you
i will overflow and burn you
until your bones cry out for forgiveness
and maybe then
i will release you

but i am not making any promises.