things.
hmm. things have been going pretty good lately. i mean besides the whole me working wayyyyy too much and not getting a good site at fest. but otherwise things have been decent. i'm happy with how my life is going. i'm happy being with this one person, i can't describe it. i'm just at a good point in my life right now.
but the whole me working too much. i'm ready to just stop working all together (even though i never will, can't afford it) but i just hate the fact that my social life is gone. but like someone said, "you wanted more hours, here you go." well yeah i wanted more hours, but not to this extent. i mean i thought by my saying 15-20 they'd take into consideration i'm a high school student, and i have another job. obviously i assumed wrong. but it's alright i put a note in saying i can't work that much, and la de dah. if anything i'll just quit, it's not like i'm working there all that long, i'll be done most likely before country fest, ok probably at the end of june. but you know it's not like i'll be there too much longer. but that's work, stressful and i hate the fact that i get sceduled at 5 am next weekend, both days. are you kidding me? ughh...kind of want to call in sick for those ones, but the money will be good.
and the whole fest site thing, really gets to me. ughh if i would have known it would be THIS long and we get the shittiest site IN THE WORLD i would have done it myself, i would have paid for all of it and got money from everyone after, it's the safest way to go i mean with gettting a site you want and all. ughh i just hope that we either get lucky or we find a new site cause i will be angry about that one. ughh. but hopefully fest will be awesome like last year because the line up is awesome and i'm going with some pretty cool people. :).
well everything else is good, i'm f-ing jacked for prom, yes i did just say the word jacked. wrong i know, but that's the only way to describe it, pumped just doesn't quite do it. well. i'm so excited cause i love my dress i like that i'm going with someone i really like and i'm just excited to have a good night of dancing fun and hopefully drunken-ness. yay!
oh, and besides prom i'm so excited about finally figuring out what's happening next year, like acutally going in and talking to him about everything, setting a date and getting classified and just everything. leaving with fraynke and i just hope everything works out how i would like it. the one part i'm not looking forward to is saying goodbye to someone that i don't want to nor am i ready to say goodbye to. i mean what if things change for the worse (hopefully not but) if things do go in that direction it would be easier, but no one said life was easy. but i just am not ready to say goodbye i'm not ready to not deal with it. i can't deal with it now, i can't nor do i want to think about it.
oh! another thing i'm absolutly pumped about is going to spain with cassie, i can't wait to just experience it. just to take it all in. i'm so excited. i just love the fact that i'm going with someone who i adore and who i know i will have a blast with. and i'm just pumped that i know that i will have a decent amount of money to spend there, that's what i was really worried about before. but now i'm pretty sure i'll be ok. ohh so much to do for it.
however much i'm excited about graduating, i'm also nervous i mean, am i ready to say goodbye to high school? right now all i can think is "fuck yes" but there's always that little doubt saying "hmm..i dont know" just because of how many people i won't see ever again, but then again half the people i'll never see again i couldn't give a shit less about. nuts! but still...hmmm. summer. things to ponder.
but the whole me working too much. i'm ready to just stop working all together (even though i never will, can't afford it) but i just hate the fact that my social life is gone. but like someone said, "you wanted more hours, here you go." well yeah i wanted more hours, but not to this extent. i mean i thought by my saying 15-20 they'd take into consideration i'm a high school student, and i have another job. obviously i assumed wrong. but it's alright i put a note in saying i can't work that much, and la de dah. if anything i'll just quit, it's not like i'm working there all that long, i'll be done most likely before country fest, ok probably at the end of june. but you know it's not like i'll be there too much longer. but that's work, stressful and i hate the fact that i get sceduled at 5 am next weekend, both days. are you kidding me? ughh...kind of want to call in sick for those ones, but the money will be good.
and the whole fest site thing, really gets to me. ughh if i would have known it would be THIS long and we get the shittiest site IN THE WORLD i would have done it myself, i would have paid for all of it and got money from everyone after, it's the safest way to go i mean with gettting a site you want and all. ughh i just hope that we either get lucky or we find a new site cause i will be angry about that one. ughh. but hopefully fest will be awesome like last year because the line up is awesome and i'm going with some pretty cool people. :).
well everything else is good, i'm f-ing jacked for prom, yes i did just say the word jacked. wrong i know, but that's the only way to describe it, pumped just doesn't quite do it. well. i'm so excited cause i love my dress i like that i'm going with someone i really like and i'm just excited to have a good night of dancing fun and hopefully drunken-ness. yay!
oh, and besides prom i'm so excited about finally figuring out what's happening next year, like acutally going in and talking to him about everything, setting a date and getting classified and just everything. leaving with fraynke and i just hope everything works out how i would like it. the one part i'm not looking forward to is saying goodbye to someone that i don't want to nor am i ready to say goodbye to. i mean what if things change for the worse (hopefully not but) if things do go in that direction it would be easier, but no one said life was easy. but i just am not ready to say goodbye i'm not ready to not deal with it. i can't deal with it now, i can't nor do i want to think about it.
oh! another thing i'm absolutly pumped about is going to spain with cassie, i can't wait to just experience it. just to take it all in. i'm so excited. i just love the fact that i'm going with someone who i adore and who i know i will have a blast with. and i'm just pumped that i know that i will have a decent amount of money to spend there, that's what i was really worried about before. but now i'm pretty sure i'll be ok. ohh so much to do for it.
however much i'm excited about graduating, i'm also nervous i mean, am i ready to say goodbye to high school? right now all i can think is "fuck yes" but there's always that little doubt saying "hmm..i dont know" just because of how many people i won't see ever again, but then again half the people i'll never see again i couldn't give a shit less about. nuts! but still...hmmm. summer. things to ponder.