hurt...
I haven't updated in a fucking while. And I think it's because I haven't been as outraged or pained as I feel right now. I'm just so angry. And I'm angry because the situation is irreversible. Tommy completely went off with Sara tonight, and I'm so livid and hurt. Like of course he's free to do whatever he wants, but with my sister, in front of my fucking face? And then after I call him out on it to keep it up. It sucks because I was starting to like him, I mean I already liked the idea of him. I get attatched so fucking easily. WHY. I have a new rule, because lord knows I can't deal with this... no more hooking up with a single person more than once. That's all there is to it. And Sara, well I'm not speaking to her. Like beyond fuck that. She should have known fucking better. It really shows how much she cares about anyone besides herself. Blatantly. I'm so mad and fed up. I'm seriously considering disaffiliating. I don't want to be a part of that bullshit ever. Like seriously, ever. I'm so angry and hurt that I just want to cry... and I can't forgive Tommy, his actions are irreversible and unforgivable. So it's back to fucking square one. Now I get to be depressed about Sam and Tommy. Fucking great.