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so saturday i woke up to the sound of my dog stroking.
within an hour she had to be put down.
and me, being a baby....didnt go when she had to be rushed to oradell animal hospital.
i couldnt watch her stroking...she was convulsing and her eyes were going up and down and her body was curled because she lost brain control of it.
man i regret not doing
joe my mom and my dad went...and when joe called me and said she had to be put down..i just lost it.
my dad couldnt even be in the room...he had to leave and he cried when he came home.
joe held her paw and kissed her for me..and my mom was there too..she kept looking into my moms eyes...they gave her valium so she'd calm down
she just stroked her head and said "its okay baby....your going to go to sleep now"
when she told me that i just lost it (like i am right now)
RIP Samantha...you were the best dog anyone could ever ask for.
im going to miss her more than i can even bear right now.
sammy...
ill miss how you would always be in my room on those late nights after i came up from the computer...always next to my bed ready to go to bed when i was
ill miss how you would sit outside and relax on our front porch, and always alert us when the mailman came. i know that you didnt really like whoever was delivering the mail, and no matter how many times i explained it that she was just giving us the mail, you'd still bark. ready to protect our house.
i miss that when everyone in my family was fighting..and i wanted to be alone..you'd always be there...listening to me when i freaked out or just there for me to pet while i cried
i miss that game we used to play..where you'd grab one of dads socks and sit on my moms bed and let me and my mom try and take it from her..and you'd growl like a brat....and the minute we didnt pay attention to you-you'd drop the sock and look around like "why arent you playing anymore?"
i miss when id hug someone else that youd get jealous and bark at us
i miss when youd sit in the middle of the kitchen and nudge my leg to be fed when you wanted to eat dinner
i miss your hazel eyes that could just level me...the fact that you couldnt speak never mattered...a dogs eyes are a language of their own.
i miss when you'd lay next to my bed..and when you'd have a bad dream...id just stroke your back..no matter how late...until you would stop shaking and slowly breathe into a deep sleep again
and even at the end...i would have put that medicine solution on your paw 10 million times a day if i needed to...if it would have meant keeping you around and not in pain
i was the one who made sure that the basement door was closed for you the past 2 weeks..and made sure that you didnt hop onto the bed by yourself..made sure your docters appts were made...made sure you were okay when daddy drove you to the vet..made sure you always had water....
and saturday i made the hardest decision i've ever had to make and i let the vet put you to sleep.
i have always been selfish but i know that the most i can do for my freind is to simply be a freind.
even though you were more than my friend, you were my family. you were my baby. and i needed to do this entry as one form of closure for me.
i love you sammy, and i know heaven will be good to you.
ill leave with this poem that came in one of the books from the room that you were sent to heaven in.
its called
"The Rainbow Bridge"
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
<3
"
within an hour she had to be put down.
and me, being a baby....didnt go when she had to be rushed to oradell animal hospital.
i couldnt watch her stroking...she was convulsing and her eyes were going up and down and her body was curled because she lost brain control of it.
man i regret not doing
joe my mom and my dad went...and when joe called me and said she had to be put down..i just lost it.
my dad couldnt even be in the room...he had to leave and he cried when he came home.
joe held her paw and kissed her for me..and my mom was there too..she kept looking into my moms eyes...they gave her valium so she'd calm down
she just stroked her head and said "its okay baby....your going to go to sleep now"
when she told me that i just lost it (like i am right now)
RIP Samantha...you were the best dog anyone could ever ask for.
im going to miss her more than i can even bear right now.
sammy...
ill miss how you would always be in my room on those late nights after i came up from the computer...always next to my bed ready to go to bed when i was
ill miss how you would sit outside and relax on our front porch, and always alert us when the mailman came. i know that you didnt really like whoever was delivering the mail, and no matter how many times i explained it that she was just giving us the mail, you'd still bark. ready to protect our house.
i miss that when everyone in my family was fighting..and i wanted to be alone..you'd always be there...listening to me when i freaked out or just there for me to pet while i cried
i miss that game we used to play..where you'd grab one of dads socks and sit on my moms bed and let me and my mom try and take it from her..and you'd growl like a brat....and the minute we didnt pay attention to you-you'd drop the sock and look around like "why arent you playing anymore?"
i miss when id hug someone else that youd get jealous and bark at us
i miss when youd sit in the middle of the kitchen and nudge my leg to be fed when you wanted to eat dinner
i miss your hazel eyes that could just level me...the fact that you couldnt speak never mattered...a dogs eyes are a language of their own.
i miss when you'd lay next to my bed..and when you'd have a bad dream...id just stroke your back..no matter how late...until you would stop shaking and slowly breathe into a deep sleep again
and even at the end...i would have put that medicine solution on your paw 10 million times a day if i needed to...if it would have meant keeping you around and not in pain
i was the one who made sure that the basement door was closed for you the past 2 weeks..and made sure that you didnt hop onto the bed by yourself..made sure your docters appts were made...made sure you were okay when daddy drove you to the vet..made sure you always had water....
and saturday i made the hardest decision i've ever had to make and i let the vet put you to sleep.
i have always been selfish but i know that the most i can do for my freind is to simply be a freind.
even though you were more than my friend, you were my family. you were my baby. and i needed to do this entry as one form of closure for me.
i love you sammy, and i know heaven will be good to you.
ill leave with this poem that came in one of the books from the room that you were sent to heaven in.
its called
"The Rainbow Bridge"
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
<3
"