What is wrong?
I have something bothering me that I need to get out for the sake of me and the baby. I have done really good at not getting upset or stressed but this is something that is boiling. Better to get it out now while its on the border.
My dad has me really upset. My brother Jerrod and his girlfriend are getting married in August. They announced their engagement recently and all that good stuff. My dad never has anything good to say about Joy nor my brother. I told dad and Sue about me being pregnant and they seemed all but happy. I didn't get the happy ora that everyone else has got when they had kids. Nor have I got support from them. Now on to what burns me. Grandpa Jim and I have been talking a lot, he knew when I lost the first baby and dad still doesn't know. I tell Jim everything, hes like the dad mine doesn't know how to be. Jim knows I'm pregnant..and dad and Jim are supposedly like brothers. My dad has yet to tell anyone he associates with that I am pregnant, however he talks about Jerrod and Joy getting married. Dad claims to love Brad...but claims to hate Joy...why am I being shoved away? This is my dads first official grandbaby...his own..not step or anything. Why isn't he happy? I understand I have M.D and there are risks...but if the risks don't bother me (obviously because I've prayed), it's my body, my choice..why can't they just be happy for me? Obviously I have already thought about every possible risk to me and my baby, why bring it up constantly? Do you really think focusing on the negative is going to help? All I ask for right now is prayers, and happiness/support. I have never asked for a penny from my dad since I moved out. Here I am with a disability, facing daily challenges, living off of less than 600$ a month, and I'm the only kid out of 6, also the youngest...that hasn't moved back home when times got rough. I'm also the only kid that hasn't called for rent money, blah blah blah. Why are they so against me? I really don't understand. Brad and I aren't married. Oh well. To me marriage is in the heart. Brad and I have that. We have what many lack. Why is it such a big deal we aren't legally married? We aren't bad people! I guess I'm just confused. I've done nothing but good for myself and others. I did what people thought I'd never do. Yet, my father can't be happy for me. Jim also stated that dad is mouthing off about Jerrods wedding saying "he doesn't know how it will go since he has to put up with Kathy (my mom)"...ok why make my mom out to be the bad one? She's the one supporting me, and never says or does anything unless my dad provokes it. I guess it shows who the stronger one is, to be able to be happy for my brother and not worry about my dad being at the wedding...yea it'd be my mom. I'm so glad to have her. She's an amazing person. My father on the other hand...it just hurts. I don't understand, but then again, I have never understood him or his views. Maybe thats just how it will always be. Thank God I have my mom. For real I pray everynight and thank the good Lord for her. I'd be lost if she wasn't here.
My dad has me really upset. My brother Jerrod and his girlfriend are getting married in August. They announced their engagement recently and all that good stuff. My dad never has anything good to say about Joy nor my brother. I told dad and Sue about me being pregnant and they seemed all but happy. I didn't get the happy ora that everyone else has got when they had kids. Nor have I got support from them. Now on to what burns me. Grandpa Jim and I have been talking a lot, he knew when I lost the first baby and dad still doesn't know. I tell Jim everything, hes like the dad mine doesn't know how to be. Jim knows I'm pregnant..and dad and Jim are supposedly like brothers. My dad has yet to tell anyone he associates with that I am pregnant, however he talks about Jerrod and Joy getting married. Dad claims to love Brad...but claims to hate Joy...why am I being shoved away? This is my dads first official grandbaby...his own..not step or anything. Why isn't he happy? I understand I have M.D and there are risks...but if the risks don't bother me (obviously because I've prayed), it's my body, my choice..why can't they just be happy for me? Obviously I have already thought about every possible risk to me and my baby, why bring it up constantly? Do you really think focusing on the negative is going to help? All I ask for right now is prayers, and happiness/support. I have never asked for a penny from my dad since I moved out. Here I am with a disability, facing daily challenges, living off of less than 600$ a month, and I'm the only kid out of 6, also the youngest...that hasn't moved back home when times got rough. I'm also the only kid that hasn't called for rent money, blah blah blah. Why are they so against me? I really don't understand. Brad and I aren't married. Oh well. To me marriage is in the heart. Brad and I have that. We have what many lack. Why is it such a big deal we aren't legally married? We aren't bad people! I guess I'm just confused. I've done nothing but good for myself and others. I did what people thought I'd never do. Yet, my father can't be happy for me. Jim also stated that dad is mouthing off about Jerrods wedding saying "he doesn't know how it will go since he has to put up with Kathy (my mom)"...ok why make my mom out to be the bad one? She's the one supporting me, and never says or does anything unless my dad provokes it. I guess it shows who the stronger one is, to be able to be happy for my brother and not worry about my dad being at the wedding...yea it'd be my mom. I'm so glad to have her. She's an amazing person. My father on the other hand...it just hurts. I don't understand, but then again, I have never understood him or his views. Maybe thats just how it will always be. Thank God I have my mom. For real I pray everynight and thank the good Lord for her. I'd be lost if she wasn't here.