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I'm so sad I hate slow songs they only remind me of what I dont have and what I really want. I mean there are some really lucky people out there that get to be with their special someone and it last for weeks, months, or even for a year. Mine dont they barely last 3 weeks. Its always two or a little bit less. And I dont know why I care but it seems like its something important to me and my family that I go out with someone and I know see that it really isn't. I do want to get married I do want children but at this moment it doesnt look like its gonna happen. It looks like Im gonna be alone for the rest of my years. I dont know what to do. I tried telling a girl my feelings but it didnt work. And some girls seem to find it funny that they ask me out and then tell a whole bunch of people that It a fucking joke. And some i tell them and they become fucking bitches. I dont know what the hell to do. I dont want my feelings hurt anymore. I have had such deep feelings towards a girl that I didnt want her to leave that she should come live with me or something but a couple of weeks after she just dropped out of the face of the earth. She also broke my heart in sixth. And in eight she stomped on it and kicked it when she stopped talking to me. And that I want girls to like me for who I am isnt really working either. I try to change my look so that I can at least look some what good because Im fugly and it aint no joke. Maybe I will end up all alone. Only friends till the end. No one to love and take care for, and no one to love me and take care of me either. And then all my friends that spend alot of time with someone start bragging or complainig that the one they were with left them. Well why dont you think about my feelings that I dont have anyone it fucking hurts I know that you are in pain but just think about me also. I'm in pain all the time because I dont have someone to kiss or hug and cuddle, or to call and be with, to have fights you know all those things that couples do. I cant do those things and it causes so much pain.