Jan 30, 2005 00:38
So, I think I'm having jealousy issues with my good friend Cheryl. First some background, Cheryl and I have been very close friends since my first year in Ottawa. We get along fabulously and generally spend a lot of time together. I was away for my second year of school but when I came back this year it was like I never left. I was worried it would be strange, but it wasn't.
Normally, Sunday is the day I see Cheryl - we go to school to study. Well actually we go out to eat, then to the library. It seems lame, but it works for us. We get to socialize and get some work done at the same time. Anyways, lately I've been feeling like I'm always the one that calls her and makes plans. I never speak to her during the week, and the times I do call, she's not home and she doesn't call me back until days later. The only thing that has changed is that she's got a boyfriend now. They've been together about 6 months or so now? Somehow, I feel like I'm being neglected for him. I mean, I realize she wants to spend time with him and see him but I feel like it's ALL the time. Does this sound retarded? Should I just suck it up and get over it or should I mention it to her?
I feel like I'm always there for her and she's not there for me so much. I know if I had a crisis she'd be there in a moment, but it's just seems she's not available normally. I feel like I'm just not getting the same friendship back that I'm giving. I don't know if this makes any sense at all and I feel like I'm overreacting but I'm really feeling down about it now. I'm leaving for home in May after graduation and I feel like I'm getting cheated out of time with her because she has to spend such enormous amounts of time with her boyfriend.
*sighs~ I don't know..... Any advice anyone??