Yah..I get it now.

[careylou_459]

Hmm..haven't been here in a while.
Yah, it's like 9 in the morning
and I'm really effing tired.
Eff, I can't lie kids,
I'm not feeling to good.
I am an idiot.
I make bad situations worse
until they disappear
and then I wonder
where the hell everything went.
I'm definately not looking forward
to Saturday,
that is, if it even happens.
April 12..
that was almost a year and a half ago.
I think now is the part
where I give up
and pretend we're still friends.
We're not,
I've completely destroyed
any hope of friendship.
"You deserve better."
Ironic choice of words,
if this was how you planned
on leaving me.

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