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life is weird as hell sometimes. && i'm pretty sure like 2 months ago all the shit that was happening right now i wouldn't have even begun to guess. some people just change && you grow apart cus you have nothing in common. some people just piss you off mroe than you ever realized. && some people change for the better. i am happy now. i can't really explain it. i'm beginning to let go of things i can't change && just accept them, which is good for me. i still struggle every day with wanting to cut which is lame i know, but the razors still in the drawer && the option is still there. my mom saw my scars for the first time ever the other day && that was scary as hell. i just lied cus i knew it'd be too hard to explain that i don't anymore. it probably wouldnt have mattered anyways. i try to let that part of me go, but its a part of my life always, whether i do it or not. i like that right now i feel like i have no pressure from the people around me. i like that my friends && family only need from me what i can give them. i dont feel like i have to live up to anything or be like anyone but myself right now && i love that, i never feel that. ♥