It's been far too long
It's been way too long since I updated this ol' thang. School sucked so bad that I never want to talk about this past semester ever again. EVER! But I'm really going to try this next semester. I've signed up for 3 different criminal justice classes and a psychology class. I'm kind of excited. On like... December 11th, I think, I went to Florida to pick up my brother. He was on deployment overseas for 7months. Too long. I'm so glad he came home for like 2 weeks. I've missed him so much. I actually got to hang out with him and talk with him a lot. I think having him home for Christmas was the very best present I could have ever gotten. And probably will ever get. Being so close to him hurts and feels awesome at the same time. I love having him here because we can talk about anything and I know for once in my life someone knows how I feel. And I really don't think he judges me on the stupid mistakes I've made. If he does, and I find out about it... ooo, there may be an ass kicking involved on his next visit home. On a different note, he is dating one of my really good friends. And I'll admit, it's really uncomfortable for me sometimes. Sometimes I just don't like it at all. But if they make each other happy, then I'm 200% for it. Because all I want is for my brother and Brittany to be happy. With whatever. Brittany and Jeff are two awesome people that I love very, very much. I guess, in that wierd way, I'm just kind of jealous what they have and what other people around me have. I guess I'm just sick of being single. I'm sick of sleeping around. I wish I could find what Jeff has, what my sister has, what my best friend has. I'm just tired of it all. Anyway, Christmas was pretty good. The only thing was that it didn't really feel like Christmas. Maybe that's because I'm getting older. I dunno. I'm quitting smoking as of New Years. I really hope I can do it. And I'm glad a lot of people I love and care for are doing it too. We need all the support we can get. My New Years resolution is to quit smoking and change my ways a bit. Be nicer to my parents. They really don't deserve the disrespect I give them sometimes. Stop drinking so much. Focus more on school and work. Get my priorities straight. I guess kind of go back to the old me. Except be a little more social. Cuz I sure do like being around people. hehe. Well, I don't know. I'm getting kind of tired so I guess I'll be getting to bed now.