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i don't quite know what to think about this summer, or many things in fact. should i wish for things as they were? i guess i shouldn't because that's all over and it must've happened for a reason. maybe? i've lost many things that ever meant anything to me, and i don't understand. i've talked to owen and things were cool. harry's coming, as becca already mentioned, either on the 3rd, 4th, or 5th. but whatever date, he's still coming, and i'm excited. the only time i had talked to him was a few months ago. it had been years. and he's changed and i've changed and he admitted that he hadn't talked to me since he thought i was somewhat odd, which i was - very much so. but he said i sounded happier on the phone and i had to agree. so maybe that's why i'm happy he's coming. maybe if i had people i could call my friends though, things would be looking much brighter than they have in the last few weeks. but people don't seem to have their reasons for anything. and i don't want anything to sound bitter. honest. but i don't want this to be the way they are. i'm afraid of what next year's gonna be. anything like freshman year? last year? anything like the end of sophomore year and this summer so far and i'm hurting already. well by birthday is in about a month - so maybe that'll be something good.