Comments | caramel_03: I'm not ok

caramel_03

I'm not ok

Jun 17, 2006 10:50

I haven't been myself lately. I'm not sure what's wrong with me, but I can't get happy anymore. I don't like feeling this way and I don't want to feel this way. I'm hurting myself as well as everyone around me. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. I really love you guys...everyone who reads this...though if you've been around me lately you ( Read more... )

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seodrohan June 17 2006, 15:54:21 UTC

I know exactly how you feel. I went through that for the better part of all last year. The only thing i can tell you is that eventually you will find yourself again. Took me almost eight months, but it did happen.

Cheez-It simplykitten June 18 2006, 02:13:03 UTC

I think the girl that you want to be, or the girl that you normally are, is just hiding. I mean, it's friggin scary right now, and I think you (and we all) have a right to be terrified and crying. (I recommend Ave. Q if you want to really bawl). Just don't give up or anything, I mean, you ARE smart and funny and wonderful to be around. And who else gets to be honored by being the 8th sin?

anonymous June 18 2006, 07:49:27 UTC

You are okay. I know exactly how you feel, I have to fight really hard every day to keep from just sinking into depression, and a lot of it I just down out with video games or movies. Its not a very nice way to live.

I feel like my world has ended, like everything that was familiar and joy-producing in my life has left, and I'm left stranded on some empty moon somewhere, and I need a spaceship to visit my friends. Its frustrating and I feel like tearing my hair out. Then I realize that it's true. My life really has disappeared. But I also know this, too, will pass. I think we both need to discover what makes us happy in life again, because it really did go away.

Hang in there. I don't think my Melissa is going to be disappearing any time soon.

zombyhero June 18 2006, 07:50:43 UTC

btw, the above post was me. you really shouldn't let people post anonymous comments....we could be stalking you.

radiofusebox June 18 2006, 14:31:55 UTC

here goes another one of my famous epic-length comments...

you are not selfish for being depressed. ever. i have had to have several people convince me of the same thing regarding myself. regardless of how you are feeling, you have the same right as anybody else to those feelings, no matter what is/isn't happening in your life.

I'm intelligent and I'm funny and I'm cute and forgiving and understanding..and I love all those things about me, but that person doesn't seem like me anymore. She's a memory...or she's someone else, someone that I WANT to be...all I am now though is nerves and tears and neurosis and weakness and broken.here is what i have to say about this: that person IS still you, has always been, and always will be. the thing about the wonderful aspects of one's personality is that they can get buried so easily underneath depression and anxiety. but that girl you just described will never, ever go away. she may be quite difficult to find for quite some time, but i assure you she's still there ( ... )