its been a while
It has been a long time since I've posted and now that I decided to post an update, I don't really feel like it. I never feel like it because I have so much to say and it takes such a long time. So...bulleted list for everyone.
*Still am jobless, and right now, I'm okay with that because it gives me time to travel, and I babysit every now and then to pay for my travels.
*I went to Buffalo, NY for a conference for GLBT groups from Jesuit Universities. I think it was the best time I have had all summer and met so many amazing people. These are the people in the GLBTQ community that I absolutely love. I had some good experiences, some good conversations, met this girl Claire who was amazing and absolutely beautiful, and so many other beautiful, awesome people that I would love to continue talking to and wish I didn't have to leave them. I got some good ideas with what to do with our group next year and can't wait to get started on it. That's all I'm going to say about New York for now.
*I feel unstable. Like I mentally have made a 180 degree turn on my perspectives of things. I feel more mature, have a different outlook on somethings and am having to adjust myself and who I want to be and become. That is where the unstability comes in, it's not like I feel crazy.
*I am babysitting, and there are a lot of kids, one of which is crying right now and must check on. Thomas drives me nuts sometimes but I absolutely love him. I want kids when I get older.
*I wonder if we will ever be able to talk about things that have to do with relationships, or if because of our past we won't? I want to be here, and talk to you, and just know what is going on in that aspect of your life. I love you and always will. I do not judge you, or anything of the sort. I think you are an incredible, intelligent girl.
*I miss Betsy like crazy. I get to see her in 3 weeks and two days. I can't even tell you how excited I am for that. I talked to her today online, I was happy. She tells me she misses me often. I sent her the last letter I would send yesterday, that makes 4. 4 in 6 weeks is pretty good I think. I sure do care for that girl...jesus.
*I miss Becky also. I want to drive to New Mexico, but I don't think my parents would like my driving that long with a car that works most of the time...and I don't really have the money to do it. That upsets me. I would like to see her.
*I am done posting and have said almost nothing I wanted to say. I would rather talk to one person about something...so there can be a discussion.
*Oh, and excuse me, one other thing. I am sick of Michael saying "I need to find me a boy" or "find me a boy" and "we'll find you a girl." I'm sorry but I don't want a girl here at home, I know what I want. And life is not about just finding people. You need to be happy with your life and it seems like all you are trying to get is play. You are drama and more drama. I love you but you drive me nuts. Life is more than finding someone to screw.
*Now I am done posting.
*Still am jobless, and right now, I'm okay with that because it gives me time to travel, and I babysit every now and then to pay for my travels.
*I went to Buffalo, NY for a conference for GLBT groups from Jesuit Universities. I think it was the best time I have had all summer and met so many amazing people. These are the people in the GLBTQ community that I absolutely love. I had some good experiences, some good conversations, met this girl Claire who was amazing and absolutely beautiful, and so many other beautiful, awesome people that I would love to continue talking to and wish I didn't have to leave them. I got some good ideas with what to do with our group next year and can't wait to get started on it. That's all I'm going to say about New York for now.
*I feel unstable. Like I mentally have made a 180 degree turn on my perspectives of things. I feel more mature, have a different outlook on somethings and am having to adjust myself and who I want to be and become. That is where the unstability comes in, it's not like I feel crazy.
*I am babysitting, and there are a lot of kids, one of which is crying right now and must check on. Thomas drives me nuts sometimes but I absolutely love him. I want kids when I get older.
*I wonder if we will ever be able to talk about things that have to do with relationships, or if because of our past we won't? I want to be here, and talk to you, and just know what is going on in that aspect of your life. I love you and always will. I do not judge you, or anything of the sort. I think you are an incredible, intelligent girl.
*I miss Betsy like crazy. I get to see her in 3 weeks and two days. I can't even tell you how excited I am for that. I talked to her today online, I was happy. She tells me she misses me often. I sent her the last letter I would send yesterday, that makes 4. 4 in 6 weeks is pretty good I think. I sure do care for that girl...jesus.
*I miss Becky also. I want to drive to New Mexico, but I don't think my parents would like my driving that long with a car that works most of the time...and I don't really have the money to do it. That upsets me. I would like to see her.
*I am done posting and have said almost nothing I wanted to say. I would rather talk to one person about something...so there can be a discussion.
*Oh, and excuse me, one other thing. I am sick of Michael saying "I need to find me a boy" or "find me a boy" and "we'll find you a girl." I'm sorry but I don't want a girl here at home, I know what I want. And life is not about just finding people. You need to be happy with your life and it seems like all you are trying to get is play. You are drama and more drama. I love you but you drive me nuts. Life is more than finding someone to screw.
*Now I am done posting.