cry me a river
I found that great someone...Ryan. Turns out he was perfect for me. I blew it haha of course I did don't I always! I wanted him but was afraid and ran away then came then ran away again then tryed to come back but was turned down, hard core. Will anyone ever love me above all else. Will i ever be the center of another person's world or will I always suffer the loneliness that burns through me consuming my soul. Probably... I thought of suicide it's been on my mind a lot lately that or murdering my parents. hehe How grand would that be I would have the money to leave and then I could have whatever i truly want. Which at this point is to go see Ireland!! Stonehenge will be beautiful when I finally get there.Of course suicide is really my only option.