hey you.. out in the cold always doing what your told

May 12, 2005 09:25

I have onje question I want everyone to answer right now. Who here has a problem with Shawn ( Read more... )

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captwertzy May 13 2005, 16:06:41 UTC
actually i am paying for it. I took out loans.
To get a job up there means I have to stay there and I don't want to.
Laura being BI doesn't bother me that much, i should have written that, but the fact that she said we should push our beds together and make it one big bed to sleep in weirded me out a bit.
As for grant I don't blame him, he blames him, I never said I didn't have feelings for him either, i do but not feelings that would make me want to want to date him. I see him as a little brother, which is strange because he is older than me.
My dad got me more than my mom. Not saying anything bad about my mom. I just feel the my dad owed me. I feel bad for saything that he fucked up and he left, so i felt he owed me. But then I feel bad for feeling that way.
As for gas and stuff to go to the Mt. Or PSU-A (or UPJ which could also work) If I go to the mount I have a ton of people I can ride which if need be but seeing as though I am getting my license I wont need a ride for others all the time.
My mom doesnt really care if where I go seeign as though I told her I am paying for it I take out the loans I'm going whereever I want to.

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captwertzy May 13 2005, 16:48:28 UTC
also concerning grant. I did not lead him on. I told him from the begininng that I was in love with Shawn.He still knows that and he was like you were upset and it was my fault that we had sex. It wasn't his fault but he knew how I felt. I hold nothing against him or anything.

I did not lead him on he knew that he and I would never date. I was just a friend to him. He had no others.

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captwertzy May 13 2005, 17:18:10 UTC
damn the more i read this the more i find things to say..

shawn told me that we was behind me no matter what I choose to do. That means more to me then people saying "you never gave it a chance, you are ruining your life, or you owe it to so and so" I do not owe anyone anything. It's my life and my education the only person I owe is myself (and the bank).

And for you to say Shawn doesn't care is the stupidest thing I have ever heard. You do not know him so how can you say he doesnt care?
He was 14 not 16 and what the fuck i am 18 years old and I can date who i please. I know he cares about me and I am glad that he is around.i can hang out and touch him and kiss him if i want because he is here.

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