I know you don't really care what I think but you said everyone comment so I am.
Yes, I do have a problem with Sean, we talked about it, he's using you. Not to mention he was what, 16 when you were born? thats like fuckin a baby, so its creepy on both of your parts.
As for the guy in Lockhaven, SP,,, you really led him on in my opinion, I mean you spend hours on end with him in his room, and I know this because you always IMed me from his SN saying you were there, so its fucked up if you don't want anything to do with him then why have you had everything to do with him up to this point?
I do think you should go back, I think that too is fucked up and if you don't you're being selfish, because you're mom is paying for this shit you have no job or anything so you can't even say you're paying for it, yeah you might someday but considering the fact that you currently aren't I think you owe it to your mom, all those weekends she found a way for you to get from school to home then home to school, (gas money) pluss shes paying for this??? You DEFINATELY owe her big time in my opinion.
Just because she is gay doesn't mean that she's going to come after you, that's just nasty. And its messed up that you're judging her, and yes you are because you mentioned that as one of the not being able to deal with it things
It's good to see that you're letting Sean ruin your life, since he is a part of why you're leaving, he of all people if he cared about you should be like no you stay and do this because YOU! NEED! to... and it does sound wrong because you're not even freakin dating him.
You could also get a job up there at LHU and work while you go to school, you don't have to be home to do all of that, and the only reason you don't like it up there is because you came home every freakin weekend and never got to know anyone other than your that guy whom you don't like now because you messed up, it apparently wasn't even his fault from what I read in your post. "Since I really screwed up" and I'm not saying whatever it was wasn't his fault too but you shouldn't be an ass to him altho it seems like that's your forte' at times.
I really don't understand why you ask people to post if it doesnt matter tho, that may make some people not want to post because why take the time to read your post and comment if you coudl give two shits less to what they think.
"God My Mom is going to Kill me...." well you definately need an ass whoopin, it'll do you good.
"Shawn didn't say goodbye this mornig" probably because he doesn't really care.
-END, and the only reason I commented is because at the begining you said you wanted one
actually i am paying for it. I took out loans. To get a job up there means I have to stay there and I don't want to. Laura being BI doesn't bother me that much, i should have written that, but the fact that she said we should push our beds together and make it one big bed to sleep in weirded me out a bit. As for grant I don't blame him, he blames him, I never said I didn't have feelings for him either, i do but not feelings that would make me want to want to date him. I see him as a little brother, which is strange because he is older than me. My dad got me more than my mom. Not saying anything bad about my mom. I just feel the my dad owed me. I feel bad for saything that he fucked up and he left, so i felt he owed me. But then I feel bad for feeling that way. As for gas and stuff to go to the Mt. Or PSU-A (or UPJ which could also work) If I go to the mount I have a ton of people I can ride which if need be but seeing as though I am getting my license I wont need a ride for others all the time. My mom doesnt really care if where I go seeign as though I told her I am paying for it I take out the loans I'm going whereever I want to.
also concerning grant. I did not lead him on. I told him from the begininng that I was in love with Shawn.He still knows that and he was like you were upset and it was my fault that we had sex. It wasn't his fault but he knew how I felt. I hold nothing against him or anything.
I did not lead him on he knew that he and I would never date. I was just a friend to him. He had no others.
damn the more i read this the more i find things to say..
shawn told me that we was behind me no matter what I choose to do. That means more to me then people saying "you never gave it a chance, you are ruining your life, or you owe it to so and so" I do not owe anyone anything. It's my life and my education the only person I owe is myself (and the bank).
And for you to say Shawn doesn't care is the stupidest thing I have ever heard. You do not know him so how can you say he doesnt care? He was 14 not 16 and what the fuck i am 18 years old and I can date who i please. I know he cares about me and I am glad that he is around.i can hang out and touch him and kiss him if i want because he is here.
Yes, I do have a problem with Sean, we talked about it, he's using you. Not to mention he was what, 16 when you were born? thats like fuckin a baby, so its creepy on both of your parts.
As for the guy in Lockhaven, SP,,, you really led him on in my opinion, I mean you spend hours on end with him in his room, and I know this because you always IMed me from his SN saying you were there, so its fucked up if you don't want anything to do with him then why have you had everything to do with him up to this point?
I do think you should go back, I think that too is fucked up and if you don't you're being selfish, because you're mom is paying for this shit you have no job or anything so you can't even say you're paying for it, yeah you might someday but considering the fact that you currently aren't I think you owe it to your mom, all those weekends she found a way for you to get from school to home then home to school, (gas money) pluss shes paying for this??? You DEFINATELY owe her big time in my opinion.
Just because she is gay doesn't mean that she's going to come after you, that's just nasty. And its messed up that you're judging her, and yes you are because you mentioned that as one of the not being able to deal with it things
It's good to see that you're letting Sean ruin your life, since he is a part of why you're leaving, he of all people if he cared about you should be like no you stay and do this because YOU! NEED! to... and it does sound wrong because you're not even freakin dating him.
You could also get a job up there at LHU and work while you go to school, you don't have to be home to do all of that, and the only reason you don't like it up there is because you came home every freakin weekend and never got to know anyone other than your that guy whom you don't like now because you messed up, it apparently wasn't even his fault from what I read in your post. "Since I really screwed up" and I'm not saying whatever it was wasn't his fault too but you shouldn't be an ass to him altho it seems like that's your forte' at times.
I really don't understand why you ask people to post if it doesnt matter tho, that may make some people not want to post because why take the time to read your post and comment if you coudl give two shits less to what they think.
"God My Mom is going to Kill me...." well you definately need an ass whoopin, it'll do you good.
"Shawn didn't say goodbye this mornig" probably because he doesn't really care.
-END, and the only reason I commented is because at the begining you said you wanted one
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To get a job up there means I have to stay there and I don't want to.
Laura being BI doesn't bother me that much, i should have written that, but the fact that she said we should push our beds together and make it one big bed to sleep in weirded me out a bit.
As for grant I don't blame him, he blames him, I never said I didn't have feelings for him either, i do but not feelings that would make me want to want to date him. I see him as a little brother, which is strange because he is older than me.
My dad got me more than my mom. Not saying anything bad about my mom. I just feel the my dad owed me. I feel bad for saything that he fucked up and he left, so i felt he owed me. But then I feel bad for feeling that way.
As for gas and stuff to go to the Mt. Or PSU-A (or UPJ which could also work) If I go to the mount I have a ton of people I can ride which if need be but seeing as though I am getting my license I wont need a ride for others all the time.
My mom doesnt really care if where I go seeign as though I told her I am paying for it I take out the loans I'm going whereever I want to.
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I did not lead him on he knew that he and I would never date. I was just a friend to him. He had no others.
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shawn told me that we was behind me no matter what I choose to do. That means more to me then people saying "you never gave it a chance, you are ruining your life, or you owe it to so and so" I do not owe anyone anything. It's my life and my education the only person I owe is myself (and the bank).
And for you to say Shawn doesn't care is the stupidest thing I have ever heard. You do not know him so how can you say he doesnt care?
He was 14 not 16 and what the fuck i am 18 years old and I can date who i please. I know he cares about me and I am glad that he is around.i can hang out and touch him and kiss him if i want because he is here.
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