Moment of Truth Followed by Ramblings of a Jackass
Today in exactly an hour and twelve minutes I find out if my dieting for the past three months has paid off at all. Today I go in to see my family doctor, get weighed and go from there. I'm hoping it has but I can't really tell seeing as I see myself everyday and can't notice the subtle changes if there are any. Today is also the day where I am going to talk to him about everything I want to get taken care of health wise. Like my inability to breathe through my nose due to a post nasal drip, see what to do about the cosmetic issues about my knees and to also possibly talk about seeing a chiropractor to bite that bullet before its too late.
To say that I am anxious and nervous is an understatement. I really don't want to find out that my dieting has been a failure. I've almost completely changed my eating and drinking habits to a ridiculous degree. I hardly if ever partake in the foods I used to enjoy.
I really hope I am on the way to a healthier better me.
Then my next challenge will be my god damned horrible self image. The self image that has been fucked up since I was a lad that continued to become more and more fucked up with every failure of a relationship.
It has gotten to the point where I have no confidence in myself and do not like looking at myself in the mirror anymore. Thanks Samantha,Jonette,Chade and Angel. Thanks a lot.
You know what? Fuck that last line! Its my own fucking fault to allow myself to continue to be affected by minuscule bullshit that happened with each of them. Time to grow the fuck up already.
Time to stop hating myself already. Fuck! I'm awesome! If you don't agree with me....fuck you.
To say that I am anxious and nervous is an understatement. I really don't want to find out that my dieting has been a failure. I've almost completely changed my eating and drinking habits to a ridiculous degree. I hardly if ever partake in the foods I used to enjoy.
I really hope I am on the way to a healthier better me.
Then my next challenge will be my god damned horrible self image. The self image that has been fucked up since I was a lad that continued to become more and more fucked up with every failure of a relationship.
It has gotten to the point where I have no confidence in myself and do not like looking at myself in the mirror anymore. Thanks Samantha,Jonette,Chade and Angel. Thanks a lot.
You know what? Fuck that last line! Its my own fucking fault to allow myself to continue to be affected by minuscule bullshit that happened with each of them. Time to grow the fuck up already.
Time to stop hating myself already. Fuck! I'm awesome! If you don't agree with me....fuck you.