I want to be more regular
I realize I had a long stint of not updating, but as we are indeed creatures of habit, I feel it is necessary to start doing this more often. I always feel better after I do anyway...so why not help myself feel better more often. I've got to go to the doctor. I'm not feeling sick or anything but I haven't been in so long. I want to see if there is another medication he/she can put me on, rather than that emotionally-numbing Lexapro. I don't like the idea of being medicated, but I need some way to find a happy medium. I don't want to be sad the majority of my waking life, but I also want the option to be sad if i need to. Lexapro just made me feel nothing...never happy...never sad...just there. Gotta go to the dentist too. I've been writing more lately, which serves as the ultimate therapy for me. I pumped out five pages of my most recent screenplay the other day and it felt great. I read what I had written and found a bunch of things that directly pointed to what was in my subconcious at the time...kind of odd to analyze your own work in relation to your being after it's already written.
I saw this documentary on David Lynch that said that he writes his scripts first, then looks at them and says "yeah, maybe that's what I meant by that." That is brilliant to me. I've noticed subconscious commentary or meaning in my work after the fact...but I've never been able to actually write without intent...I'd like to give it a try sometime. Maybe I'll just invent two characters and just launch into an extensive dialogue between them and see what happens. That'd probably be a very interesting and revealing exercise. I want to go back to the old novel I started a year ago...I really liked where I was going with it, but never got past the five-page first chapter. My attempt at a psuedo sci-fi...I think I just got scared of failure like I usually do and ditched it.
I really want to see a great movie. I've seen alot of good ones lately (and a few bad,) but only one that really attached itself to me. Got a few suggestions from Corey and Ed, but have yet to act on them. I think I'll go to my Blockbuster account and add them. I want to start an online comic about my friends and would like license to do so from each of you so I know who's fair game and who is likely to get offended. My roommate is the perfect candidate for cartoon parody, (A middle-class product of private Catholic schooling, who is "ghetto," because some of her friends are...brilliant!) and she actually said she is willing. I obviously will include myself, and am open to outside criticisms about who I am (be gentle, I'm fragile.) I think I have such a broad spectrum of friends, and want to share them and myself in an serio-comedic artistic medium. The idea for a title that I'm kicking around is "Situational Serio-comedy," a play on the classic sitcom idea. If it's bad, tell me please, I can take it. Peace Y'alls, wish you well.
I saw this documentary on David Lynch that said that he writes his scripts first, then looks at them and says "yeah, maybe that's what I meant by that." That is brilliant to me. I've noticed subconscious commentary or meaning in my work after the fact...but I've never been able to actually write without intent...I'd like to give it a try sometime. Maybe I'll just invent two characters and just launch into an extensive dialogue between them and see what happens. That'd probably be a very interesting and revealing exercise. I want to go back to the old novel I started a year ago...I really liked where I was going with it, but never got past the five-page first chapter. My attempt at a psuedo sci-fi...I think I just got scared of failure like I usually do and ditched it.
I really want to see a great movie. I've seen alot of good ones lately (and a few bad,) but only one that really attached itself to me. Got a few suggestions from Corey and Ed, but have yet to act on them. I think I'll go to my Blockbuster account and add them. I want to start an online comic about my friends and would like license to do so from each of you so I know who's fair game and who is likely to get offended. My roommate is the perfect candidate for cartoon parody, (A middle-class product of private Catholic schooling, who is "ghetto," because some of her friends are...brilliant!) and she actually said she is willing. I obviously will include myself, and am open to outside criticisms about who I am (be gentle, I'm fragile.) I think I have such a broad spectrum of friends, and want to share them and myself in an serio-comedic artistic medium. The idea for a title that I'm kicking around is "Situational Serio-comedy," a play on the classic sitcom idea. If it's bad, tell me please, I can take it. Peace Y'alls, wish you well.