Last Train To Edaville
November 4, 2003 10:54 AM
In the last 24 hours I’ve felt warm and fuzzy, terrified, relieved, happy, depressed, and lonely. I don’t usually go through that many moods in a day. Am I going through menopause?
Feel terrifying creeping back in. Lately I’ve had a feeling of overwhelming doom. Like something horrificly, horribly, disastrous and unpleasant is gonna happen to me. And I don’t like it.Feel like I don’t have a future and my time is running out.
*********************************
I broke a shiver last night! A cold weather induced shiver! It was great! Too cold to be in it naked last night. There’s a limit to how cold it is where I don’t want to be naked in it. Wendy’s crazy, though. Or was. She liked swimming in the cold. In February 1998 it was 58º outside and she dove in her parents pool naked. Her lips turned blue, but she loved it. The hot bath to warm ourselves up was fun. Sometimes I really miss Wendy. How did Wendy ever happen.
*********************************
Had a dream last night I was at Edaville Railroad. I got my six quarters to ride the train. I walked towards the train and it started to move to go on it’s trip. I ran to it so I could catch it, tossed the engineer my quarters. Train picked up speed and I was looking for a spot to jump on, but it was going to fast, and I was left standing at the tracks as the train went away. Somehow seemed fitting. The engineer yelled I’ll get you next time around.
In the last 24 hours I’ve felt warm and fuzzy, terrified, relieved, happy, depressed, and lonely. I don’t usually go through that many moods in a day. Am I going through menopause?
Feel terrifying creeping back in. Lately I’ve had a feeling of overwhelming doom. Like something horrificly, horribly, disastrous and unpleasant is gonna happen to me. And I don’t like it.Feel like I don’t have a future and my time is running out.
*********************************
I broke a shiver last night! A cold weather induced shiver! It was great! Too cold to be in it naked last night. There’s a limit to how cold it is where I don’t want to be naked in it. Wendy’s crazy, though. Or was. She liked swimming in the cold. In February 1998 it was 58º outside and she dove in her parents pool naked. Her lips turned blue, but she loved it. The hot bath to warm ourselves up was fun. Sometimes I really miss Wendy. How did Wendy ever happen.
*********************************
Had a dream last night I was at Edaville Railroad. I got my six quarters to ride the train. I walked towards the train and it started to move to go on it’s trip. I ran to it so I could catch it, tossed the engineer my quarters. Train picked up speed and I was looking for a spot to jump on, but it was going to fast, and I was left standing at the tracks as the train went away. Somehow seemed fitting. The engineer yelled I’ll get you next time around.