update
I got feedback on both my essays for the GRE. I wrote both of them with too much time left, and edited them, but decided just to move on (something you can't do on test day). Even though I spent significantly less time on each essay than I will be given on test day, I was rated at about a 5 for each. My instructor said that I have good arguments, and great organization but I should pay attention to punctuation when I revise, and utilize my vocabulary to show off my wide knowledge of words. Making those improvements will probably get me a 6.
This makes me happy, because I am completely happy with a 5. I will definitely strive to improve before test day, but the knowledge that I probably won't score below a 5 on the written exam makes me happy.
I talked with my social worker/therapist today. She was very encouraging. She told me I sounded a lot better in terms of mood today than last week. It's kind of true overall, and I think it's because I've made a list to manage my anxiety. Even though I can't always manage it perfectly, it's empowering to have that list there. She said that I have "insight" into issues and myself, and that it's a tool most people don't have. Barry has said that to me before, but to have 2 mental health professionals say that somehow makes it credible? When they say it it sounds like a compliment, so it's hard to take, but because both of them say it, it sounds more like a mental health assessment, which is harder to swallow.
I have realized that if analyzing data for my project doesn't work out, meaning I don't have any significant results for my presentation, I can just present on the methodology and background of the IGR project. Which, is totally doable and I'll be fine with it. So, I'm fairly positive about this week, even though it's crunch time and I have a shit ton of stuff to do for this week. This is a good thing, and will help me deal with the stress of the project. I do have an appointment at CSCAR, which will help me figure out how to analyze data in SPSS for my project.
Talking with Marit yesterday was also good. We talked about clothes, people, weight, assholes. I feel that when I connect with people while talking to them that inner part of myself, that some refer to as the soul, feels like liquid light. That's the only way I can describe it.
This makes me happy, because I am completely happy with a 5. I will definitely strive to improve before test day, but the knowledge that I probably won't score below a 5 on the written exam makes me happy.
I talked with my social worker/therapist today. She was very encouraging. She told me I sounded a lot better in terms of mood today than last week. It's kind of true overall, and I think it's because I've made a list to manage my anxiety. Even though I can't always manage it perfectly, it's empowering to have that list there. She said that I have "insight" into issues and myself, and that it's a tool most people don't have. Barry has said that to me before, but to have 2 mental health professionals say that somehow makes it credible? When they say it it sounds like a compliment, so it's hard to take, but because both of them say it, it sounds more like a mental health assessment, which is harder to swallow.
I have realized that if analyzing data for my project doesn't work out, meaning I don't have any significant results for my presentation, I can just present on the methodology and background of the IGR project. Which, is totally doable and I'll be fine with it. So, I'm fairly positive about this week, even though it's crunch time and I have a shit ton of stuff to do for this week. This is a good thing, and will help me deal with the stress of the project. I do have an appointment at CSCAR, which will help me figure out how to analyze data in SPSS for my project.
Talking with Marit yesterday was also good. We talked about clothes, people, weight, assholes. I feel that when I connect with people while talking to them that inner part of myself, that some refer to as the soul, feels like liquid light. That's the only way I can describe it.